My_Dear_Diary

2008-09-28T00:27:00.003+08:00

Am I an extra for coming into this world?? Why my family just couldnt stop all the nonsense that has been going on for the past 20 plus years?? Why is it that wanting to have a carefree and happy leave is such a difficult thing for me?? Why cant I have the harmonious in my family? Why are you all so stuborn? Why?? Why I am having a different treatment from her?? Why is it that I have to face all these rubbish but yet she doesnt?? Why keeping my mouth shut is also my fault? I know that answering back is my fault, but keeping mouth shut? Why she must say that we are all against her? Why she must said that she is an outsider? Why am I so restless at that moment?Why can I just tolerate a little more? Why is everything happen to me in this way?? Why cant I have a happy and less conflict family like what others have?? Why why why???

2008-04-06T21:30:00.002+08:00

One after the other, now is my family problem again. Mum got pissed with me again. Come on, I am also pissed lol.. She anyhow promised aunty that I will be joiniong them for dinner, and luckily I have no event or outing going on. Just ask her this question and she just flare up 1st, and of course I will agure back. In the end, Dad got pissed off too, and dad more or less side me, and in the end, she wasnt happy at all,and everything just goes on and on. Till today she still gives me black face and attitude. Comes to think about it, I know is also my fault that I shouldnt have answer back and say anymore stuff, but I has already apologise, what do you still expect me to do?? Why you treat me is so different?? Am I your daughter too?? The way you treat me, just sadden me..

But I must said that at least today I am lucky that I have Bby to accompany me,thought is just a short while, but is just the heart that matters. Despite of his tiredness after his praying in the morning, but he still makes the effort to come and meet me, which really makes my heart feels better and more "Xin Wei". Thank You Bby.

I really really wish that all the rubbish that has happen recently will go away as soon as possible, hopes that everything will be smoother from tomorrow onwards. May god bless me!!

2008-04-04T20:14:00.005+08:00

Very long never blog, reason being, busy plus at times just dont know how to put them into words. My luck wasnt very good ever since last week till today. Everything was not going so smoothly and lots of hiups on and off. Suppose to enjoy myself last weekend, but end up being ruin by my parents. Following day, slept for just an hour to 2 only, has to wake up at 3 plus in the morning, thinking that could finsh praying early, end up we could only pray in the daylight, because of uncle's car spoil, and we waited for 3 to 4 hours.. Hai...
A brand new week, a good start, but rubbish, has to OT for 2 hrs plus. Telling myself that never mind, monday only, is ok, tuesday will be better, ha, who knows, tuesday super duper bad luck, being assign to this particular surgeon theatre whereby everytime I will surely get scolding from him either by dropping stuff or even the hose spoil, also my problem or whatever, no matter how hard I try to do my very best, and better still, if he didnt scold me, then I will get hit by some heavy stuff. Some more my senior in charge also has conflict with him, whereby I heard that he has already condem her.. True enough that night, I get all the rubbish again, drop his stuff, get scolded by him, he throw the instruments on my table, my senior answered him in a very bad attitude and in the end he wants to talk to the sister in charge and request to change staff. I was being scolded by him till in the end I broke down. Therefore he request to change because 1 give bad attitude, the other become emotional, because he saw I cried. Ha, ever since this incident happen, for the rest of these few days my confidence totally drop super lot. I become very scare to go to work, when I scrub up, very afraid of dropping stuff, when circulating, I tend to feel breathless even is just a very minor stuff, my performance totally dropped.. Every little thing that is not going well can also make my tears flow. Feel really super duper useless. Really wish to go for a long break, and just dont feel like going to work tommorow morning. When will all these rubbish goes away???...

2008-01-25T22:18:00.001+08:00

It has been a long and tiring week for me the whole of this week. Lots of happenings, 1st time scrubing for major cases which involves the lung and the stomach together at a go, putting me in a super duper stress situation, and the worse part is i have to repeat myself for 3 to 4 times in order to get my stuff. running like mad dog on tuesday with just 2 to 3 hours of sleep on that day due to the super fast going surgeon and the who only knows that documentation is her first priority sister in charge, dont even check if there is enough sets for other cases, scrubing a case for more then 3 hours with no lunch and still have to go home late, working morning the next day but still have to stay back to finish the list till 11, reach home at 11 plus to 12 and wake up at 5 plus the next morning, just in order to be early for the big boss case, which was cancelled in the end due to he is busy. Ha, what a good excuses. Was considered lucky that tomorrow has no work but have to be back on sunday morning, sob sob.. Cant ask for more but just to be happy that at least i could get away with all the stupid running like a mad dog today..

2008-01-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

A new year a great and good start, but sad to say, I am sick from eve of new year till now, still not fully recovered. keep coughing all night, running nose or block nose in the morning. Sob SOb!! Another sad news on Monday, I cant apply for my degree due to super lack of staff covering our shifts. I am super tired and exhausted, stupid illness still doesnt recover n cant have good night sleep. Is tiring..

2007-12-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

Last sunday, 16 dec was a unforgettable and enjoyable day for me. It was a very very long time that I could have such a long time to enjoy myself with no restrictions and calls from home and no nagging from home before going out.

Went down to Orchard Partyworld and lots of happenings over there. Got to know a new friend whom was so hyper active after some time of getting along, and also someone whom can make our dear yiyi to be hyper too.. Unbelieveable.. She was a friendly and easy going gal to get along with. Cant imagine that I could watch a LIVE RACE from partyworld to Marina Square.. Wow cant imagine that this gal can run that fast. HA maybe I too slow liao..

Have super lots of fun during KTV putting aside some unwanted feelings, but was really tiring walking from Partyworld to Marina Square. My foot was aching, and my head were spinning away and sort of fainting. Finally we reached and all of us were so anxious looking out for the restuarant, but we just couldnt find it anywhere in this place, Finally Nat decided to give them a call and that place was situated outside the shopping mall.

WARAKU's food was nice and appetitzing, or was it because we were too hungry after the long walk, haha.. During our dinner,we too have fun there, all thanks to Kangwei's STICKY CURRY.. wow that was the funniest part when he ask the waitress and the expression on her face. It has been a long time since I have such a wonderful and full of laughter day and dinner.. Really enjoy a lot..

2007-11-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

Moody moody moody, everything looks ok today, but I am just feeling very moody... No mood to do anything especially after work.. Tired Tired Tired... Suddenly have the urge to give up.. REally no mood or strength to carry on with everything. Put in so much effort but in the end I get.... Just dont know how to appreciate my effort.. Giving in time and time again but....Haiiiii.... Really hope to run away and cant be bother with everything... Sian to the max!!!!

2007-09-09T21:25:00.001+08:00

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them

You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky

You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter

It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait

How Do Men See You?

2007-09-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way

You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to

Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets

No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

2007-09-09T20:42:00.000+08:00

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.

You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it.

You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you.

Your near future is all about change, but in very small steps. The end of the journey looks far, but it's much closer than you realize.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

2007-09-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

Finally after such a long period, He finally have the time for me today, without any calls, without any rushing off to drive whoever or doing this and that.. Is since a long long time ago that we can actually have the whole afternoon till night together, having lunch, followed by shopping, movies and dinner, without much or any interruption. Feel so happy and wonderful today.
To what others think, couples do that everytime what, but in my case, neh nehh..
During the weekdays, he have to stay in camp, even if night's out also busy driving his family around or meet friends, weekends should be ok right, but sorry, also the same thing, even if we meet, also a while, just for breakfast or lunch if on sunday and maybe awhile of shopping or movie or maybe even never meet at all, dinner if possible on saturday, but rare case. So in summary time spend with him or on me is PRIVATE LIMITED.
U can say why I am complaining, but do you know ever since he went in to NS, time is already limited, but now he has a car, the time is even more limited then the past, thought is more convenient but yet we have a distance apart when we meet. So if I can choose, I really prefer him without the car, at least we can really have more time and not so much distance away from each other even when meeting.
HMMMMMMMM, I really dont know how long will this go on, I know when it will ends but provided that it really comes true. Is really tiring at times, hoping to have time together, but yet in the end is just a while or nothing at all. At times I really really wonder how long can I take it, will I be that strong to hold on to it, Will I give up one day, is really contraditing at times, Am I being childish or am I asking for too much??
Now I finally understood why most people around me said that army days is a test for a couple!! In the past,my thinking was as long as I dont "Bian Xin", everything will be fine, but Now I really understand what do they mean!!
But no matter what, till now, I am still trying my very very very best to hold on. I really hopes that I can hold on till the event finally come and with a good results. Thats what he has told me before. Good luck to me...

2007-08-05T20:51:00.001+08:00

Arhhhhhhh=( I am super duper injuried this week. Physically and maybe emotionally and physically. Got myself pricked by a suture needle that is used on the patient, and is because the doctor didnt notice my hand was there. After the prick I was already super sian cause I was wondering should I report to the sister in charge or should I just keep my mouth shut cause I was thinking that another 2 to 3 weeks later I will have to go for the last appiontment which I have the prick previously, but in the end my senior in charge went to report it. Ok never mind, go through all the reporting and stuff that needed to be done, but what makes me super pissed was My own discipline sister in charge just scold me and say all the sacastic remarks to me without really knowing the whole situation, and after they know they still insist that I am at fault, and the way they say is like as if I love to get prick so much, I am not scare of getting any transmitted disease from the patient. Come on, I wont treat you as MUTE even if you didnt say anything.
Then yesterday, again got scolded for nothing, even though I am doing the right thing but I still get shoot. Come on is a weekend and everyone just come to work without having to face any stupid stress like in the weekdays but we Ortho girls strill have to do that. Never mind, I just accept what is being given to me. I just go for my breaks as usual like what my seniors instruct me, I still work back the timing that I have taken extra during my break, and go home at the time that I should be claiming but yet I got scolded for not going the whole full break time. I go just half an hour is because there is shortage of manpower, and she still insist that she did send people over, but that ger come at a later timing which everything is already settled. Hai like that I also got shoot. I dont know what the hell is going on, What kind of shit did I step on that causes me to have all these rubbish!! I am super Sian Sian Sian!!!!!

2007-07-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

Is since a long time that I last blog, reason being: busy and tired and too much thought till I dont really know where to start from. Ha!!
Has been busy with all the welfare thingy ever since my AL, trying to be my best in whatever I do, trying to be careful with all those women that U cant really afford to step on thier tails, otherwise you will not have any good days for the rest of your time in there. Have to learn how to be neutral, and not coating anyone's name when you are in the conversation, learn how to be extra hardworking in front of these women, learn how to make a distance with someone whom you actually can click with, but just because these women just like to backstab her, (not sure what has happen in the past but just dont understand that why we are in the same discipline but yet....)or just not happy to see us in good terms. Arhhhhhh, why is working society so S***,hmmmm, I really miss my poly days, and the days when we are just waiting for our O levels and working part time in NTUC, I miss those days!!Doing the things that I should do, in the end also got senior say I lazy, trying to avoid cases!!Come on, we are all on night shift together, and my respond is just a little bit slower in taking the initiative to scub only, and yet you just put this label on me, hai, really yuan wang orh!!! Another few more weeks, the new gals are coming in, and the stress is getting double, all the seniors just expect you to know all your work, and if you were to say the wrong thing or do the wrong stuff, you will get it!!Arhhhhh, super duper demoralise after what has happen this few weeks. Feeling like shit shit shit!!
Trying my utter most best to hold my temper, and to be more understanding and also putting aside all the stupid stuff that I face in work when I am on the phone with him, but yet I get rubbish. Hai, I am really very exhausted, I really need a break, at least a body massage for me, which I am still searching around for it. Next week is again another Will Die week, reason being: working morning but with Long hours everyday, and also in the stupid trauma theatre, wearing all the lead apron which is so damn heavy, Xray the whole day, my eggs is going to be fried or gone. I think by the time I am 30 years or more, I will be a old lady with all the spine and joints problems.Hai....

2007-06-05T20:51:00.001+08:00

You Are Great With Money

You know the value of a dollar - and you save and spend wisely.

By living below your means, you've set yourself up for a rich future.

And while it may hurt to sacrifice now, you'll probably have plenty of money later on.

You're on your way to riches - just keep it up.

Are You Good With Money?

2007-06-05T20:47:00.001+08:00

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.

You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...

But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.

You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

2007-06-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

Arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, everything is also my fault. U tired is also my fault. I am not the one who makes you tired k, come on, you deserve it. You only know how to give your friend face but dont know how to think of your body and your health.Your friend so big shot lol, must give face till must stay overnight and play mahjong with him till morning 8 plus then go home lol. And somemore before that u promise that u will meet me out, then in the end, we just only could meet me for lunch, reason being: U R Shed. Come on, I make you tired one is it? Then is this fair to me, we could only meet once a week and with just that few hours, cant you just treasure it. Ya I know you are tired but have u ever think about my feeling? Ok I agree that after which I let you go home, but I still keep calling you, is really my fault, but have you ever think of who causes this to happen, is all because you just cant spare me some time to applogise about what has happen initially and answer me in a better tone, and just give me those kind of tone like as if I am the one who is causing you all the tiredness. You have all the time and energy for your friend and play mahjong till dawn jiu dont have energy to listen to me and answer me properly ma? Your friend whom you know for less then a year is more important then me lol, I am always the bad guy, and your friend is always the good one. Say I spoil your mood on that day, come on, I know your character and ur health well, once you never sleep well or didnt sleep, you will just give a sian face and you will definely be tired. You just dont listen to me, and now till today, you can just called me, and tell me you are very tired and shed after not having enough sleep for that two nights and plus all your exercises today, U deserve it!! You only have yourself to blame.On the other hand, I just though of having a nice chat with you before you called me just now, but you just spoiled everything. And blame me for being draggy and naggy towards you. To you, I only know how to nag and I only know how to think of my own interest, but never think of your interest at all. Is this fair to me?

Yeah, my AL is finally here=)

2007-05-29T00:16:00.000+08:00

Yesh,finally my annual leave is here. Has been pending for this annual leave ever since my last AL. Was like 4 months plus ago, really working like mad, and I am totally shed. Hoping to take this opportunity to really have a good rest and to do whatever that I have been planning for. Really enjoyed myself on sunday, we finally manage to have our own sweet and wonderful times together with no interuption and anything. We have our own privacy and time, and a good talk too.I manage to understand him a little bit more and he did tell me the reason behind some of his actions. Though the time was short but is already longer than what we used to spend together. Was surprise by what he initiated before we meet, but didnt regret for going along with it, instead I feel the satisfaction and happiness after everything. Hope that whatever he said to me before on that day and last sunday will come true eventually and just really wish that we could go throught everything together as we go along.

2007-05-13T17:59:00.000+08:00

You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what.
Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out.
And while some may get hurt by your honesty...
At least everyone knows where you stand!

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howhonestareyouquiz/">How Honest Are You?

2007-05-12T16:37:00.000+08:00

Is a week full of happenings. Monday, mum sick, take family care leave to look after her. Tuesday, Dont know what the hell again, I faint during work again, another episode, and because of this, We have another misunderstanding. Wednesday was the most enjoyable day for me, though still have to go back to my work place to see the doctor, but after all, I still have yiyi to accompany me. Hee,(WINK) After the consultation, is our dim sum time. After which, we went to Bugis junction and have our neoprint taken, and then we went to Billy Bombers to have our dinner. REally enjoy ourselves to the fullest on that day. Thursday, back to work, tired and moody, partly is tired and also due to the misunderstanding that we have. Friday, OMG, down with sore throat, bodyache, tired and feeling feverish, but still tahan till my work ends, haha i strong hor=)

2007-04-29T18:35:00.000+08:00

Argh.... I am going to be bored to death, hmmm... All because of my stupid leg and him. Hai, was very troubled by my weight ever since I went to the chinese physician last week for my sprain toe, which has been very painful for quite some time. He say I have flat foot, say I cant put on weight anymore, otherwise all the ankle problem will start surfacing. Hai my weight seems to be like e stocks like tat de lei, last week high, this week low, den nxt week high again or remain. Now try to take just wholemeal bread with jam only lol, then my colleagues told me that actually eatting the same food everyday doesnt mean that u can really reduce ur weight, and the other thing is u cant consume more than 30g of fats per day oki. Hai, why cant my genes be like my dad, how he eat also wont get fat, if fat only a little but only. Hmmmm=( super demoralise. Now also dont really dare to wear fitting clothes and skirts lol, all because of my big fat thigh, wear le, will be very ugly. Hai

2007-03-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

Can humans really forget what has happen before? Can we actually forget something that has really hurt us so much? Can forget but will u still think back as the times goes by? Does LOVE helps to clear all the unhappiness? Do we really think 1st before we do? Do we ever really think 1st before we say anything to others? Why Why Why? Can anyone guide me what to do now?

2007-03-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

Yeahpi, yeahpi, finally we get to watch the show" Music and Lyrics" together. Has been hoping to watch this movie with him ever since it starts. Was very happy when dear dear message me just now, and date me for a movie today. Hee, this is the 1st date that he initialed after what has happen the whole of last week. Really appreciate the time that we spend together just now, thought is just about 2hours, but is just the whole purpose and most importantly, both of us were happy that really matters.*Wink* We both enjoyed the movie, and I should say this is really a great and meaningful movie. Loves the song' Way Back Into Love' that is compose by Alex Fletcher and Sophie Fisher. Overall rating: 5 stars!!

2007-03-19T20:42:00.000+08:00

Lots of things has been happening recently, i nearly lose him, which i know that the whole reason behind is because of my stupid attitude and my stupid character. I nearly lose him because of all this stupid stuff that i did. I really sheng zai fu zhong bu zi fu, but after what has happen, I really must change all my stupid character le, i cant continue this way anymore, I really dont wish to let history repeat again and hurt him anymore. I dont wanna lose him, i wan to be with him always.

2007-02-12T21:43:00.000+08:00

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies.

You think good luck is something you won't attain - you expect bad luck.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's The True You?

2007-02-12T21:37:00.000+08:00

You Don't Hold a Grudge

You're willing to give almost anyone a second chance, even if they've really wronged you.

Incredibly forgiving and compassionate, you understand that people sometimes change for the better.

Do You Hold a Grudge?

Should I or Shouldnt I

2007-01-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

Have been thinking a lot recently. Feel that at times I really could not communicate with her anymore, seems to be like we cant really stay together, just a difference of a few years and yet... Hai is it true that 1 of us must move out then everything willl be fine? But should I do that? But I cant bear to leave them. Hai.. I am really tired of fighting with her everytime, is really very tiring and painful. Everytime is I am the one who gets the hurt and the blame, but luckily i still have Dad who will always be there to side me, but hai

HURT

2007-01-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

Am I very stupid? Why is it that people can learn so fast and yet I am still so blur?
Why do people like to compare? I know I tend to be slow, but it doesnt means that U people have to say this in front of me right? Is it wrong to be slow? Do I really suits theatre life???
Am I a Disgrace to u? Why is it that u cant jus bring me along and introduce me to your friends but instead leaving me to your family until the very moment that I went and look for u. Is it all because of my family or is it because of the scratches on my forehead? I know u people must be thinking that I everytime has a lot of family problem, my family is different from others,my family always quarrel and fight but does it also means that I am at fault? I like my family to become like this is it? I am also feeling very tired and sad but what can I do?
Why everytime anything happen is always my fault? Why is it that is I am the one? I am also a victim too! I am also hurt, I am always hurt by what U have done to me, but why is it that always I am the one who get blame and get scolded? Is it fair to me?
I am very very exhausted.

2006-11-12T16:44:00.000+08:00

I am very sad, very confused. Really feel like crying. I m very lonely, really very lonely, when did I become like this? How come everything turns out to be this way, am I being too possessive? Did I balance in the wrong way? Why I dont know how to balance my life well? I am really very sad, lonely and confused. I dont know what to do now, all i know is to cry and cry. My heart really aches, I feel so alone now.='(

Happy 21st Birthday to me

2006-10-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

Has not been blogging for quite some time. Today is my 21st birthday, feel happy for what is being given to me by everyone around me.Previous saturday Dad bought a cake for me for my advance 21st celebration with my relatives. Last friday, kor kor and yiyi give me surprises and it really makes my day, feel very relaxed and happy thru out the whole outing=) Today, the actual day, feel very happy and honoured that my dear will try to make a point to celebrate my birthday with me, thought some of the surprises is not fulfilled. Really Feel very happy n grateful that I could have all the blessing and gifts that even some of them is what I have been hoping for.

Recently, I notice that he changed. How and what kind of changes,I dont really know how to describe it, is just different from what he used to be in the past. Did mention to him but hmmmmm, maybe this is human nature ba, seems to be like nothing that either of us can do, or even if can, maybe is not the time yet, or I m not used to his changes, but all I wish that the love that he have for me will never change and it goes the same for me.

Hmmmmm, Really hope that from today onwards, I can change my bad habits of thinking too much or getting upset easily and some of the stuff which could lead to some misunderstanding and unhappiness. Wandering could I do it??!!

Your Inner Child Is Sad

2006-07-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

Your Inner Child Is Sad

You're a very sensitive soul.

You haven't grown that thick skin that most adults have.

Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone.

You don't let many people in - unless you've trusted them for a long time.

How Is Your Inner Child?

2006-05-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

I was very touched that yiyi & kor kor actually delay our movie date from yesterday to today, We went for breakfast in the morning then followed by our movie date: MI3. After which we went down to THPZ wishing to visit Iris mummy but hmmmmmmmmmmmm, so sad, she was not working, so in the end we just talk to some of our old colleagues & went to have our lunch. Heehee, yiyi treat us to swensens & we have quite some fun there=)
The feeling of going back to THPZ today is very very different, dont know hw to describe the feeling, but just feels that the whole place has change a lot, erm as fo human wise, that is where i really dont know hw to describe, is like very MO Sheng.Maybe is true, as you grow, you tend to change or maybe they are not whom I used to be very closed to, so that is why I am feeling this way ba.
Overall I did really enjoyed myself today with the 2 of you!!

I got a new bracelet from him finally

2006-05-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

Last sunday, dear dear finally bought me a bracelet which he has promised me since i lost my favourite one.
Initially we did went to look for one after I lost that, but seems to be like nothing caught my eyes.But as times goes I thought he might have forgotten all about it, so I never really think about it, but surprisingly, Last sunday, after our breakfast, before my last driving lesson, He bring me to all the jewellery shop such as Perlini & Bits & Pieces to look around. Initially I thought it was just purely looking around, but in the end he ask me to choose what I like, but i was still thinking that maybe is just asking only, but surprisingly he really ask the sales girl to took it out and pay for it. At that moment, all his actions really melt my heart, really very happy that he still remember what he has promised me.

Lost of My Fav. Bracelet

2006-02-24T20:52:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm:'( Super bad mood today, I lost my Fav. bracelet. That is my Fav. bracelet which I ever have. It is from cambodia which bel bought for me. Althought the bracelet is not those very very pretty de, but is one that I would Definitely put it on whenever I go out.Actually is due to the losening of the opening of the bracelet, initially there is no problem, but is all because of yesterday, if I never put it on while doing my project and cause it to tighten till cannot be taken out, then my sis jiu wont take the cliper n force open it and causes it to lossen. And I also dont know what has happen to me today, stupidly still go and put it on even though initially already have that feeling that if i put it on, it will get lost sooner or later due to the lossening of the opening. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, I WANT BACK my bracelet, but my family & bel says that is very hard to get back, the reason is besause I dont really know exactly where did I drop it at, I just feel that is either at the North Canteen or on the way out of our school. But I REALLLY WANT BACK MY BRACELET, I REALLY MISS MY BRACELET. Where are you my dear bracelet, I really miss u!! HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM, I really have the urge to go back to sch to just look for it jus now, but after hearing their comments and thinking it logically, is really very hard to find it back. BUT I REALLY WANT IT BACK.

2006-01-14T16:28:00.000+08:00

Yestderday night was a wonderful & happy night for me. Because yesterday Dada come n fetch me after my work. The happiest thing is he bought CHOCZ chocolate for me. Everytime when I pass by the shop, I will be looking at its chocolate and everytime I have been hoping that someone who I love will buy give me, hehe,then finally yesterday Dada bought it le.=) I was so surprise when I saw that, the feeling was unforgettable & words can never describe how I feel last night,besides the chocolate, and also the way he behave last night that really makes me feel very sweet & happy=)

2006-01-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

I am really very sad, I dont know is it because I tend to think too much or what, but it seems to me like nobody really understands me, no one can really lent me a ear to listen, all I need is a ear to listen,is that so difficult?? At times I really feel like a failure, i seems to like dont know hw to manage my relationship with my friends, my family, my boyfriend and my studies is only those jus able to make it only. Why all of them dont understands me, why those who are really close to me n knows my characters dont even understands me? Is it that when u need to li yong me tat time then I am your good daughther or sister or.. I am really very very disappointed. At times, I really feel that am I jus a LI YONG PING to all of u.I know that at times is my fault when I raise my voice at u al, but why do u al hav to treat me till like I am your enemy? Do u all really treat me as your sister n daughther or jus your atm or ur happy happy jiu scold de chu qi tong?
I know that at times is really a bit disappointing when u all ask mi out but i cant go, but this is not what i want too, U all should know that I have family curfews, U all should know that how my family will react & what will they do if I everytime go out. But does that means that if I do not go out with u all in every gathering, jiu means that I am someone who has boyfriend le, jiu forgets about friend le? U al everytime only will know hw to say that I confirm is spend time with my boyfriend one la, dont know how to spend time with all u friends, but who really understand how I am feeling during the whole of this holiday? When I need someone to be there, is there anyone there for me? when I really wants to go out with u friends, can i go? are u all free? do i have to rush hme again after meeting u all for jus awhile only? U all will only think that I still have my boyfriend to be with me ma, but who will really knows the whole situation? He needs to go for his attachment when I am having my holidays, then only 1 day off, enough for what? for his own stuff? for his family? for his friends or for me? Then now attachment over le, thought he will have more time but, his project again. OK never mind, thought sat or sun, either days we can have the whole day out or maybe half a day, in the end family need his help. Then how? Is this what u all say that I only know how to accompany him but not u all? I am not trying to "man yuan" or what, but jus feel that is all this fair to me with jus all ur one sided view? I am not pin pointing at who, I am jus venting out all my angers & my unhappiness n my disappointment in all these stuff.
Is a brand new year now, I jus really hope that all of these stuff wont happen to me again.

2005-11-05T22:08:00.000+08:00

Very long never blog lo.A lot of happenings, setbacks which we have to face as days goes by. After the misunderstanding with classmate, there goes my failing of my clinical module. Never fail any module in my poly years before. Really feel very disheartening,very sad, even have the feeling of giving up on this course, but when come to think abt the $32,000++, I have no choice but to overcome it.
After this, here comes my dear dada going for his attachment. U all might think that attachment only ma, nothing what, but to mi, is another chanllenge. We will not be able to meet each other that often le, less time to talk on the phone and maybe his thinking will be different le. Hmmm I know I think a lot, and a lot of people also tell mi that if is yours, eventually it will be, if is not, how you force also no use.I understand, but now after 1 month of his attachment le, I really feel that he change a lot, he become very easily tired, dont really feel like talking to me everytime when we are on the phone, then also like very seldom wanna go out with me, feel that he like enjoy himself more when he is with his friend then with me.
Maybe u feel that I am thinking too much, but a lot of things seems to be appearing le. Maybe I really care too much or I am too particular about some of the things le, but, I really dont know what to say le,maybe 1 day i might just break down or what, i dont know, hope that we can go through it and become closer ba.

2005-10-15T01:00:00.000+08:00

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are confident and ready to tackle life.

You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance.

You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines.

You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

2005-10-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

***Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage***

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyouridealrelationshipquiz/

2005-10-15T00:43:00.000+08:00

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.

Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.

You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.

You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

2005-07-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

Is really a tiring and hurting week. Ever since the 2nd or 3rd day of school, yee man has been giving me faces and attitude to see, as if I have done anything that has hurt her family or whatever. Finally things has manage to be sort out this week, all she told me was that she misunderstand that I everything also want to snatch from her, is because our our project presentation.Then the next thing is she say that I have always go and accompany my boyfriend when we are having breaks in between or after school, then somemore this is not she tell me personally, everything also ask our gang of friends to talk to me, I am the one sitting there and they keep on shooting at me, and all I do was just keep my mouth shut. I agree that last semester I have been accompanying for boyfriend when I am having any breaks or whatever but, from the starting of this semester, I didnt do that anymore, I just meet him after school or sometimes also dont have, dont tell me after school I cant do anything I like? Ok I did explain to them about from this semester onwards I didnt do that anymore, but Guess what, they say that "it doesnt mean that just this few weeks you never do that means we will feel that your heart is with us or what, it takes time, and it is like frm past sem pile up to this sem than this will make ppl FAN GAN de, thats why sometimes what we talk, you cannot be involve cause u r not with us together ma." So what can I say? Since you all feel this way then what you all expect me to do? The most hurting part is that why cant U(yee man) just tell me about the misunderstanding yourself? Why must you ask the whole gang of them to tell me? What do u treat me as? Ur friend ma? Or? It is really a tight slap that she has given me. I have try to forgive her by toking to her, but in the end, what i get back was, I talk to her like as though I am talking to the wall or I am just transparent to ppl. Message her and ask her, then she say that this is her character, then me lei? I am the one being hurt by u, then still try myself to forgive u, then u just this misunderstand,then u say u need time, then have u think about my feelings?

2005-07-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

You are kind, popular, and generous.
You tend to be successful at anything you try.
A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd.
You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

2005-06-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you save for a rainy day.

You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you make opportunities to interact with many people through club activities or a hobby, then select someone you like.

Who's the True You?

2005-06-18T14:18:00.000+08:00

Yeahpi yeahpi, hahahaha finally all my attachment has ended, I am free from everything now, my year 2 has finally put to an end, yeah yeah..For the past two weeks,Went to the Haemato ward. A ward which deals with all the blood disorder and I did manage to learn something there. But this is also the 1st ward and the 1st time that I Black out on the 1st day of my attachment. Wasnt too sure what has actually happen to me, went to see a doctor, nothing was being diagnose instead she refered me to the neuro specialist but I just cant be bother to go. The reason for not going is because I just dont want my parents and my dada to worry so much, I just feel that the black out is just simply due to not enough sleep or my anaemia, just dont want to make a big fuss out of it.Has been very stress out during the past two weeks, reason being that just afraid that I will black out again in the ward and has to replace again on sat or even during my holidays, but thank god, nothing happen after that, and everything was fine and nice. Haha now is really the time to enjoy my this two weeks of holidays and esp on the last weekend of my holidays, hahaha, muacks!!!! Holdiday, here I come!!

2005-06-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

2005-06-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

Finally manage to get some rest this week, yeahpi, hahaha.. But hai, althought I have been pending for this holiday long ago, but I am still a little bit sad. Sad about what, sad about my dear bao bei dada holiday is over!,which means that he will be busy with his studies again and also he will be having lesser time for me. At least this week, I am still able to meet him for awhile, but when next week comes, we might not even meet the whole week. Reason being, My attachment start again, and this will also last for two weeks and somemore I will be having shift duty and he is also having his night class, so!! Maybe now is really the time that I must really stand up and be more independant then usual, maybe i use to be very dependant on him or...I also dont know.Sometimes I feel that I am very childish, know that his semester start already but still keep on wanting him to accompany me or whatever,am I being very selfish?I think so!! Hai, but nevertheless, attachment is starting next week, so I just have to face all this, as I know that it will come sooner or later, but all I can do now is to have a good rest and try not to disturb him so much and do well for my two weeks attachment. And really hope that althought we do not have much time for each other, but hope that our bond will not become weaker, instead it will grow stronger.

2005-06-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: October 23

With a birthday on the 23rd of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them.

You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas.

You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel.

You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable.

Your mind is quick, clever and analytical.

A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine.

You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility.

Very sociable, you make friends easily and you are an excellent traveling companion.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2005-05-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

For the following days of my 2nd week of attachment, I manage to see patients with all the gynae or obs problem. Some of them were admitted for surgery of the reproductive system such as removing the whole repro system,abortion,cessarian and labour and also manage to observe how abortion is done as in the initial stage and the weighing of the little abortus which has been ejected from the woman's womb.
Have lots of feeling and thinking during this posting, especially when it comes to how important is it to have emotional support from the husband for patient's undergoing child birth and for those who are going for abortion. The support and feeling for these two procedure are totally different.But overall I do really enjoy myself and i do learn and see quite a lot in this posting, and really hope that in future I can be posted to this ward.
But really feel very happy & fortunate that during this attachment, my dear bao bei has been very caring towards me, especially for this whole week because almost everyday he will prepare lunch or dinner for me or even sent it to me during my break time. Really want to thanks him for being so understanding towards me during my these few weeks of attachemnt. All I wanna say is THANK U lao gong, I LOVE U!!

2005-05-14T23:14:00.000+08:00

This is the 1st time that I am having such a fun and eye opening attachment.The 1st three days of my attachment was sooooo fun and exciting.. Went to the O& G center on the 1st day, manage to see how the Ultrasound is being done and how they detect any abnormalities and haha also can see how big the baby is in the mummy's womb.
The 2nd day was even more fun, go to the LABOUR WARD.Very happy that I manage to see 1 labour,the three of us also participated in the Labour, as in encouraging the patient to PUSH her baby out and Giving the mummy all the emotional support. After the baby come out, all of us was so happy and relieve, and tears jus come out naturally from our eyes, but we manage to hold back, RMB PROFESSIONALISM, haha.But maybe I should say that I am on the weak side, cause after seeing how the baby is born and hw the placenta came out, I simply jus feel weak, maybe is due to the large amt of blood loss or maybe I have not taken my breakfast yet or whatever. The three of us just simply feel exhausted, haha as though we are the one who is giving birth to the child.
On the 3rd day, we went to the Nusery. Yeahhhhhh can see so many baby, hahaha.. All the babies there were jus less than 1 hour old or the oldest is only 3 to 4 days of life. They were soooooooooo cute and soooooooooo adorable and also very light. U can jus simply carry them with 1 hand.Haha Finally have the chance to bath & feed the baby again, hehe.. This is for the 1st week of my attachment.

2005-05-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Finally my semestral exams has come to an end. Now only left 5 weeks of attachment to go, then there goes my year 2.. AND dont forget the waiting of my semester results.Really hope that I can do well this semester, but the final verdict will be out in few weeks time. Although exams has ended, but dont know how come I still feel stress and also tend to get agitated easily and even have misunderstanding with my close ones. I am also not sure what has happen to me, maybe I really need some time to recover and tune back to my normal self. I really dont wish that my this stupid attitude will cause any unwanted regrets to me in future..

As for this coming monday, I will be going for Gynae & Obs posting. It is a posting that we can get to learn how the women give birth & hopw to nurse women who have problems with their reproductive system. I have been looking forward to this posting since yr 1 and is finally here now. The interesting part that I am looking forward to is really hope that I can get a chance to see how the woman give birth to a little baby. Really Really hope that I can get to learn as much things as possible in this posting, as I only have 2 weeks of practice in this catergory in this 3 yrs.

2005-04-11T21:20:00.000+08:00

Finally all my presentations and test has come to an end.. Yeah yeahpi, finally after all the hard work and rushing of this and that, all has come to end lo.. But this is not the end yet, still got 3 more semestral end papers to go and 6 more weeks of attachments before I officially finish my year 2. But sad to say, I might only have 2 weeks of break this semester, all thanks to the VRE, very good, make us cannot go out for attachment, then all have to make up during our semestral break. Very good right, STUPID, IDIOT, WIN LIAO LOL.. hmmmmm... Somemore still maybe want to take away our study days to make up for the stupid attachment also lol, idiot right!! Hai but no matter what, just hope that everything will turn out smoothly during my attachment and my coming exams.

Finally manage to meet up with yiyi last friday, haha so happy that she can get a job now.Although it was a short gathering, but I am very happy that the bond between us is still there.. But no matter what, just really hope that our bond will be as strong as that time and all the best to u ah, yiyi. Take care and Hope to see u soon, there goes to liang kor kor also orh..

2005-03-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

What has happen to me recently, why am I so impatient, why am I feeling scare, why am I having fear, why last time I can jus auto shut off without quarreling with them but now I cant? Why am I so tense up abt small little things?Why, Why, Why, Why am I having all these feelings recently? Have been doing a lot of thinking and questioning and tears are rolling down these few days also. What am I fear of? My studies? My parents? My Boyfriend? I dont know. All I know is I am afraid of losing all these that are important to me. I am afraid that I cannot do well in my studies, afraid that my parents will leave me alone or treat me as a stranger after the incidents, I am also afraid that my boyfriend will leave me because of my stupid nonsense or feel that he is the cause of whatever.. I really dont know how come I have all these kind of thinking? But I am jus afraid of losing them and I also cant afford to lose. I dont know what has really happen to me, all I know that is my test, exams and presentations are all coming up, I still need a lot of energy and strength to carry on with these stuff, but I am sort of feeling tired now, how, how what am i going to do?Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........... Really hope that I will find out all the answers soon, I really dont like to have all these kinds of feelings, I dont want to have this kind of stupid character of being impatient anymore and I also dont want to have these kind of stupid feelings anymore.... Please.............

2005-02-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

Overall, you scored as follows:

28% are cooler, and
72% are more of a loser than you.

What does this mean?

You're cooler than half the people! Great work!

2005-02-12T00:21:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I have last updated my blog, the reasons are: No time, No time and No time. Once the New year has started, I have been struggling with my time, trying to balance out everything, wanting to do a lot of things, going out on attachment, doing case studies, having tonnes and tonnes of assisgnment to do, trying to get all the things done but there are still lots to go and ended up everytime only manage to get a few hours of sleep. Time is always not enough for me this year, 24 hrs seems to be very little, have to rush this and that, have to spare some time for the family, boyfriend and friends. Luckily my boyfriend and my family(sometimes) are quite understandable towards me, but as for my friends, hai, I think only got 2 or I also dont know.Trying to put in my best effort in whatever I do, for my studies, family, relationship and friendships, but it seems that I am not managing it very well. I must really admit that I am very very poor in managing my time. I really feel that hai, I also dont know how to say. This year seem to have a lot of things waiting for me to learn, to manage, and to whatever. Recently I have just lost a good buddy. Reason being: Not enough time to accompany her and she dont feel the bond between me and her. Although she did not say anything, but from the journal she written, hai. I really dont know what to say, just feel really disappointed and sad to hear all this things, but actually me, myself also have this kind of feeling that our bond is not there anymore.Heard from many of my senior in sec sch saying that when u are in poly or once you have leave sec sch, those who use to be very close to u, will slowly have distance with u and the topic for u all will become lesser or even never contact.But instead of believing it, I still try to hold on to it, having those very native thinking that our friendship will last forever no matter what happen and thinking that what they say is not true, but "haha", times really proves everything.Since she choose not to reply, I really have nothing to say anymore, as I have done everything that I should have done and say everything that I wanted to say.
I am really feeling a little bit exhausted and tired, but I still have to buck up, cause there are still more to go, more to learn, and more to face. No matter what, I just have to hang on there, to complete whatever that has been arrange for me,as some of the pathway is I, chose it for myself, so I have no one to blame, Just have to go with it or I should say that think abt the positive point and put in all my best effort.

2004-12-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

Attachment has started since Last Monday. This time round, al I can say is my VTP(Vocational Training Posting) Lecturer, al S*** & F***!! The one that I met @ SGH is someone who only know hw to pop into the ward & tok Rubbish & nothing else. Hai, thought & hope that the lecturer in KKH would be a better one, but in the end, this one is worst, stupid & bastard!! Tell us to do case study, then shld be we are the one who is choosing, but in the end, idiot, she go choose for us, somemore is a complicated one, still expect us to give her by nxt Wednesday. Hw am I going to pass it to her? Coming Mon & Tue, I am on nite duty, then Wed is my off duty day, where got time to do, wow piang a.. This VTP is realli a S*** & F*** one.. Idiot lecturer... But however realli looking forward to my nite shift tomorrow & Tuesday. A New Experience for me but Hope that it will be a good & enjoyable one.

2004-12-26T20:03:00.000+08:00

Stupid stupid stupid!! Why everytime after U al quarrel, U must surely find some fault with me de.. This is something between the two of u, I AM INNOCENT de ok. I keep quiet or just go out with my friends, also cannot huh? Also GOT WRONG Huh? Why everything also must find fault with mi, Why everything also must say till my side here, Why U al quarrel, then I must everytime say that u are on the right side? Can U be more resonable a not? Only know hw to say that people is @ fault, then u urself dont have meh? I go out with friends, is also just to avoid anymore quarrel with u al only ma, also cannot is it? Then when I accompany U go out, then we just shop for a while only, then u jiu say tired, or say wanna rush to other places to buy other stuff or watever shit.. Then when I just go out with my friends, U jiu say a lot of idiot stuff, say I everytime only know hw to acc my friend, nv accompany U or whatever stupid idiot or childish stuff, which shouldnt be said by an adult like U!! PLs I also Wanna Have Some of My Own Time de ok? K la, Tell Mi, What u REALLY want mi to do? Is it wan mi everyday 24 hours, also stick at ur side, then everytime stay at hme, and be a guai guai girl, then in the end become a nerd or a gal who totally lose contact with her friends & totally become a outdated or old fashion gal lol, then u happy lol, ok, satisfy ma like that??!! Everytime only feel that u r right, say ppl dont guan xin u. Ppl guan xin u that time, U dont know meh, u cannot feel it de huh? Why everytime must just because of a simple dining out of dinner, also must quarrel till a lot of stuff then happy de?

Test has Ended But More Test Are Coming!!

2004-12-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

The test has finally ended last Thursday, YEAHPI!! My dear Bb is finally back. Went over to the airport to fetch him with his family & after which we went for dinner together.. But frm the few hours of spending with him & hearing him saying what has happen in Cambodia, can realli feel that he suffer a lot both in physically & mentally, poor guy:(!! But at the same time, also felt that my dear Bb's thinking has changed quite a lot, but is in the good way la, as in I should say that he is more mature now, but not say that he last time not mature ok!! Although the 18 days test has ended, but another test has started or I should say in another way that is there are more test ahead waiting for us to go through.. But no matter what, since I have choosen to go into this relationship, I will hang on to it no matter what & I believe that we will be able to make it in whatever test that are ahead of us.

2004-12-06T01:08:00.000+08:00

"I expect to pass through this world but once;
any good thing therefore that I can do, or any
kindness that I can show to any fellow
creature, let me do it now; let me not defer or
neglect it, for I shall not pass this way
again."
Ettiene De Grellet

What Motivates You?
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2004-12-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

Who wants to go where everyone else has already gone anyway? You look for the hidden paths, ones most don't see and don't care to venture down. You go boldly andstand proud discontent with what's been put in front of you, determined to find a way perfect for you even no one else will take it with you. You live as you want and not for others, but be careful not become selfish. Others may need you and you should be there for them, especially the ones close to you. You tend to be the leader in most situations and people listen and trust you not lead them astray. Your firm in your opinions and beliefs and unwilling to change yourself to suit other people. By the same token, you can be stubborn to a fault, change isn't always a bad thing you know. Everyone changes and grows, you shouldn't try to stay exactly the same or you could be left behind. Then again, you may change frequently. Some people change to fit in, you my little non-conformist, may change to be set apart. It's great to be different, but it's also just as great to have things in common with people, even if those people are in that "crowd"you seem to have a vendetta against. Don't try to be different, just be who you are, whoever that is and you'll be unique all on your own. So make some time for people, let yourself blend into the crowd every once in awhile, you may just learn something about them and yourself you never
knew before.

2004-12-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

Finally manage to figure out all the oven apparatus after asking around yesterday.. Started out with the baking of Brownies, as it was the only recipe which I am quite familiar with.. But the result turn out to be quite disappointing, cause my Brownies turn out to be quite hard and too sweet..(Normal one is soft inside) After much tasting,find out that actually the problem lies on the sugar that I use & another reason is that I never blend it long & well enough, Hmmm..Sob sob:( But hope that the next time will be successful ba..

Today is the first time that I try to stir-fry a plate of vegetable without the help of my parents.. Actually Dad was suppose to be the one doing the cooking, but in the evening, he called home & assign mi to cook, cause he has taught me before.. After receiving the call, my mind was thinking huh ask me to cook ah, die ah, nv try before lei, although got learn & see how he cook before, but can i be able to do so? Will it turn out weird or.. But after much questioning & thinking & mum's encouragement, I finally pluck up the courage & started the test.. Mum was the 1st person who taste the food, and she just say ok la, But when the Master taste it, the result is that u have sort of overcook the vege a little bit & a little bit too bland, but 1st time cook nv get burnt & got these result is quite ok la.. After knowing the result, was sort of disappointed with it, but also quite happy la, cause I have never imagine that I can cook a plate of vegetable without the help of anyone.. But really hope that there will be improvement the next time round la, hehe:)

Finally All Are Free To Meet Up!!

2004-12-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

Meet up with Si jia, Soon Ghee,Wee kiat, Liting& her little gal on Wednesday afternoon. Finally, all of us are free to meet up, ever since our last gathering, which was a few months ago.. Went to Bugis to shop for present for Huiying's birthday.. After which, we went to Far East to meet Huiying's boyfriend & wanted to give the birthday gal a surprise which we have plan earlier.. Haha when she arrive, she was shock & surprise to see all of us there waiting for her, especially when she saw Liting, cause liting is the one who has the least time to go out often due to her in-laws.. After all the surprises, we went to SUKI SUSHI for our dinner. On our way to the restuarant, ghee ghee, sijia & mi went seperately to buy the bdae cake. While walking towards the destination, the three of us were joking & fooling around on the street, @ that particular moment, the feeling was like during our sec sch days, nothing much to think & worry about, just joke & fool around like nobody's business. At the restuarant, after our dinner, we took a lot of pictures & celebrated for the Bdae gal. At the same time after the dinner, we also manage to catch up with The Singapore Idol final..
But after this gathering, I was quite happy & relieve to see that everything was ok, & the bonding was still there..Hehe:)

2004-11-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

Went back to NTUC with Liang kor kor & Yiyi da jie on saturday. Sort of miss the place & also sort of recall what has happen last year during this time. Although a lot of things such as the management has change, but still realli miss some of the people, especially our Iris mummy. Suddenly also have the urge of going back there to work, but I cant, cause I still have to go for my attachment & some other reasons. After the visit, we went for lunch at Pizza Hut. Although is my treat la, but in the end, kor kor & yiyi also got pay some of it..

On Sunday, realli feel like walking out of the house & just leave them.. Have a fight & quarrel with my younger sister. Ya I do admit that is partly also my fault for giving her a slap, but the slap is due to her rudeness.. But hai, just dont wish to say her anymore le la..

Today finally my dad agree to buy an electric oven & cake mixer for mi & finally, Bel & mi still have 9 more days to go, yeah!! Went to BEST & NTUC to get both of the items.. But was quite stress after getting it, cause was rather blur about some of the things in it & the items that is needed on the baking pan. Think realli need some time to figure out & do some asking around before starting, so wish me luck ba.. Hahaha!!

2004-11-28T01:14:00.000+08:00

Firstborn...

Strengths: You're organized, logical, and a great
student. Since parents usually give firstborns
a lot of responsibility over the younger ones,
they often grow up to be great leaders. That
might translate into your calling the shots in
a relationship. Or it might make you the
nurturing type.

Weaknesses: You may come off as a little
insensitive; you're a perfectionsit, so you can
sometimes be too critical. On the other hand,
you might be easy to be taken advantage of you
by, say, always being at your S/O's disposal.

Your ideal match: You'll probably get along best
with a youngest child. You and another
firstborn could drive eachother crazy fighting
over control. But a laid back last-born will
gladly leave all the organizing to you. And
they might just give you the push you need to
forget about all of your heavy responsibilities
for awhile and have a little fun!

2004-11-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

Sometimes really feel that I am neglecting some of my friends.. Like yesterday, after going out with my Da jie, Si Jia, I really feel very gulity. From our conversation yesterday, she say that we are not really that close as I think we are, which I find that is true. Although she say that she never blame me or whatever, but I just feel that I really never go and make an effort to call them out or meet them or even call them.
I just feel that how come Huai Ying, 1 of our gang, also the same as me, study poly still can try to squeeze time out to meet them, hw come I cant? Am I trying to find reason for myself or should I really go and try to adjust my time appropriately, so that I can really spend equally time with everyone whom I dont wish to lose contact with..
But I think, I really have to learn how to manage my time properly, so that I will not make the same mistake again.. But I Seriously dont wish to lose any of my friend who have help me through my hard times n share my happiness with me..

The Test Has Started!!

2004-11-23T21:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday is really the start of the test for Bb & Me.. He have to go Cambodia for 18 days, which means that we cant be together for all this days. When I was at the airport, seeing him entering the departure gate, the feeling was really undescribable..

After the departing, I went to the Clinic to interview, but whether is it successful, the answer will only be out on this weekend. Basically this job required me to work till 12 midnight, able to work for @ least 1 year, dispensing of medicine, registration & what a clinic nurse should do.. The purpose of getting this job, is to hope that it can help me to increase my knowledge on medicine.

But no matter what is the answer, all I hope that is The 18 days test for Bb & Me, will never make us apart BUT INSTEAD & I Really Hope That it will Make OUR BOND STRONGER.. But whatever it is, Just wish me good luck and I will JIA YOU TOO.. BB I will WAIT FOR U!!

2004-11-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmm.... Is a long time since I last update..
Hasnt been updating for the last few weeks is due to my semestral exam & my attachment..
This few weeks was really an unforgettable & sort of cant imagine.. hehe..
During this few weeks, a lot of things has happen..
Firstly, my exams are coming immediately after my KKH attachment, den those modules is so darm hard & boring to study, but luckily got Bel to accompany me during the study & preparation period.. Secondly, immediately after my exam, is my posting.. Before my posting, i just a single gal thinking of going overseas to recupperate from my previous 'injury' & sort of think about or forget the person whom I have been trying to tell myself is impossible between the two of us, but really cannot imagine that on the 1st day of my attachment, it really come true & we are finally together a few days later.. Yeah.. This will be my ONE & ONLY FOREVER!!!!

2004-10-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.

2004-10-15T22:46:00.000+08:00

Am i being selfish or what? Sometimes i really cant stand her anymore. Tell her not to think so much le, she still keep thinking, ok this one never mind, but sometime still go and vent her anger on me. For example, ask her to go and eat or tell her to go out of the seats or whatever, she will just shoot back u or use a unhappy tone and talk back to u. OK i understand you are unhappy with your boyfriend things, but didnt u have vent enough of your anger le ma, i already try all my best to help you, let you a listening ear, explain to you, accompany you and all i can do and even ask my brother to get involve also, what do U STILL WANT? I am really trying to get hold of my temper le lol, what do you still WANT FROM ME? I know you are very unhappy abt what he have done to you, ok never mind i let u a listening ear, not only mine, my brother's also,help u in all the ways we can, but have u ever think that when u tell us abt those things, u are @ the same time asking us to recall back what we have experience previously, and recalling all the unhappiness that we are trying to forget. OK this is also our business, but u still want us to go online every night, JUST TO HELP U CHECK WHETHER UR BOYFRIEND GOT ONLINE MA, u thought what ah,WE UR SERVANT HUH OR WHAT WE SO FREE AH, NO NEED TO PREPARED FOR EXAM AH, U DONT WANT TO PREPARED UR EXAM IS UR BUSINESS OK, BUT WE WANT LOL.OK u ask me to do jiu enough le ma, why still want to ask MY BROTHER TO DO ALSO, HE IS NOT UR SERVANT ALSO LOL, PLEASE LOL.. People willing to listen to u, willing to give u advice is already very good liao lol, what do U STILL WANT? Doesnt mean that people also willing to do those things for you also lol, please lol... The way u treat us, makes me feel like u are just making use of our sympathy only lol, PLEASE know your limits can, everyone has their own limits in tolerating people and helping people one lol. Once you misuse or exceed it, u will only make People get fed up or worst is dont even want to be bother with u lol..

What i am mentioning above is refering to Yee man lol, i really cant stand her sometimes lol, but sometimes i just feel that she very poor thing. Sometimes i was asking myself, is it right to think this way, am i being too selfish or am i being too much.. I really dont know, but i just really cannot tolerate it...

Maybe I am being stress by my school work and the coming exams lol, that's why my mood swing so easily, maybe la, i also dont know lol, but i will control myself no matter what lol and I will not explode unnecessary in front of them lol.

2004-10-09T17:11:00.000+08:00

Wake up very early in the morning today to do my housework before going back to NTUC to meet Wl, Xy & Bel.. Initially we plan to meet at 10 but ended up most of us was late, except Wl was the earliest.. As usual, after we reach there, the 1st person we will look for is our " mummy", the Chief Cashiers, like Iris and Wan Joo. But sad to say that, we only manage to talk to Wan Joo & some of our former colleagues.. Feel a little strange when talking to one of my former colleague, it was like talking to a stranger or whatever.. But after this visit, I have a very weird and sort of stranger feeling as in the enviroment and the people there, hai maybe is because we didnt really talk much to all our former colleagues or whatever lol.... I also dont know..

After the visit, we went to shop around Thomson Plaza for a while, and went to EDO for our lunch.. We were having fun and great time during our lunch, Bel & Xy were playing with the slippers and Wl was behaving like a small boy while playing Bel's hp games. Although the time was a little bit too short, but it was really an unforggetable and enjoyable moments. It was a long time ever since we, four brothers & sisters, have our meal together already.. But really treasure the time we spend together and really hope that there are much more chances in the future.

An Unforgettable & Enjoyable Posting

2004-10-09T16:35:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of my KKH posting.. Was a very enjoyable, unforgettable experience.. During the posting, I manage to accomplish all of my objective. The most unforgettable experience is that, I manage to do the infant bathing.. It was really an undescribable feeling after bathing for the little baby, she was so tiny and cute and when i bath for her, she seems to enjoy it unlike other babies will cry.. Some of my friends seems to have difficulty bathing the babies, but this baby really build up my confidence, so I decide to bath for her again yesterday as she will be discharge in the afternoon also.. But really sort of miss the ward and the baby that i have been looking after for the past few days..

After the attachment, went to meet XY & Bel for dinner at Ngee Ann.. XY bring us to the Ngee Ann Alumni and we have our dinner over there, the food there was quite delicious and quite filling. After the dinner, we went to Ang Mo Kio Macdonald for some dessert and chat for a while, but was really fun during the time, XY & I even have to use force to open the earpiece package that Bel bought for us, really a little "Po Huai Xin Xiang " lol.. Haha but really enjoy the time.

2004-10-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

Monday was a exciting day for me, because i am going to KKH for my Paediatric posting. Yeah can play with babies and at least for the time being i dont have to go back to SGH... When i reach there, it was really a totally different setting as SGH. Especially the food there and the buildings there. We have our orientation of the hospital by the Nurse Clinicial, after that we proceed back to our respective ward.

Intially i was very happy but at the same time i am also very blur.. But after our lecturer and the ward sister has orientated us, i was a little disappointed. The reason is because i cannot bath for the babies and the things that i can do on my own is the measuring of temperature, BP, pulse rate and respiration rate.. Which means that the things that we can do is very little.. Hai..

After the lecturer has left us, i went into my respective cubicle, and i saw there are many babies at my side, haha so happy.. So i walk around and talk to the babies mummy and daddy.. After a while, i was quite lucky to observe the mother bath for the baby. The baby was just 2 months old, and he was so tiny and cute. Althought during the bath, he was crying away but after that no more..

I am also very lucky that after the baby's bath, it was time to feed another baby. So the Enrolled Nurse taught me how to prepare the milk, and after that i just immitate what i saw my mum feed the baby last time. Haha the baby was very cooperative with me, he drank finish the whole bottle of milk and slept soundly after that, which really build up my confidence..

During the past few days in the ward, i really saw a lot of different babies abd children.. I also manage to see the other side of some of my group mate. Especially Travis and Guan Yi, see the way they carry the babies is really like a daddy or mummy.. Haha i am also being name as the mummy too, they say that the way i carry and feed the baby is like more experience then them. I am a little bit experience because last time my mum and grandma was a nanny, and some of my cousins are younger than me, so i do manage to learn a bit from them la.. hehe.. Next week is my last week in KKH, really hope that it is also a enjoyable one, and hope that most of my objective will be accomplish by then.. hehe wish me good luck!!

2004-09-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

Just finish my Bio Pract & MCQ test on Thursday. Is finally over. I really having hard time studing for this test. I also dont know why, I can just sit there for 2 hours but only one or two important info gone in, or can study till half way and the whole brain become blank. Hai sometime can really study till cry. Cry is just because afraid that i cant get what i want, and also because i really cannot take it anymore n feel like giving up. But i know i wont do that, no matter what happens. All i know now is just hope that the result will turn out well and maybe i can get a B or at least the worse is a C lol. Haha but very happy that finally i can have a good sleep this few nights.. YEAH!!!!

What Animal Are U?

2004-09-25T02:15:00.000+08:00

You are a Catterpillar! Many people are often envious and jealous of a caterpillar. Caterpillars may not be quick, but they are quite wise and often think about things before they do them.!

2004-09-19T01:20:00.000+08:00

Just finish my practical test on Friday, manage to get 48 over 60, but is actually is over 70 one, but my assessor haven grade me on the 10 marks for my overall performance, whether how confident and stable and do i need any prompting during my assessment, those kind of things lol. But i roughly know i maybe will get around 6, cause after the whole procedure, i ask the lecturer for feedback on my skills. So overall, i will get 50 something over 70, then add my theory paper, i just manage to get a B, which is just 4 marks away from A lol, but i am also quite satisfy with my result. Cause despite of all the happenings that has happen the day before my practical test.
In the afternoon, went for my elective practical. We have the 2.4 km training, is those 400m interval, where by u have to target how long do u want to finish each round base on ur previous test result. So mine is 21 mins, then i increase it to 18 mins, which means 3 mins per round. In the end of every round, i manage to maintain it at below 3 mins la, but the result is just either 10 0r 20 seconds before 3 mins. Then after the training, meet up with didi, and carry on with our training again. Went to run round the school, which is more then 2.4km, but in the end manage to finish it.
Actually after the whole day events, i was very happy and satisfy with it, but when i reach home, something happen again. There is already quarrel at home the previous nite already. The previous nite, actually is just some small quarrel between my mum and sis. But ended up, become the whole family. It was a big quarrel that nite. Then last nite, mum say something that makes me feel like the family will break up anytime. I DONT WANT!! I REALLY DONT WANT TO SEE MY FAMILY BREAK UP!!! I am really very scare, i keep thinking and crying the last nite. Cause now only Friendship and Kinship is the most important to me, then i really dont want and cant afford to lose either one of them.

2004-09-14T16:17:00.000+08:00

Sunday afternoon just get my new handphone, haha i finally upgrade to colour phone le....=) But sad to say, this model that i am holding on to now, 3120, is not my target phone. My target phone is Samsung E 600C, but the price now is quite high, that's why i never get it. Initially i did not plan to get this phone, i am just getting it for my sister, but after getting it, looking at the function and the price, i start to wonder should i get it.. Haha, maybe is really fated la, after wondering and asking around for sometime, my 8250 spoil! Ended up, i have no choice but to get the phone at the price of $68 instead of $18 cause i cant trade in the 8250 and my dad wants the 3315.
Initially in the morning, the tension at home was like "anytime can explore" mood. Cause my mum was rather unhappy with my dad and in the and the arrow also shoot to me. She say that i have change a lot, say i now seldom talk to her, even if talk also a little bit.. Hmmmm i also has been asking myself this question lately, and the answer is that i am busy with my work, busy catching up and stress about my upcoming test and the next thing is that i just want to prevent having any conflict with them lol. But i dont know whether is this the right thngs to do. Maybe after some of the things that has happen previously, has make me into what i am now. I just want to be back the usual me, but maybe i cant be back to the JIahui that i am when i just came out of secondary school lol. But maybe the present me is also ok la, i also not sure. What i wanna say is, pls give me sometime to get back to someone that i want myself to be.

2004-09-12T01:00:00.000+08:00

Received my Clinical test result on friday, manage to get only a B+ for it.*sigh* Our lectuer was kind enough to let us have a look on the marks that we got for each sections. Was rather happy when i got to know that i score 22/25 for my MCQ, but when it come to the SAQ, it was rather disappointing as i only score 16. This theory paper only stands 30% out of the whole module, whereas the rest of it will depend heavily on my practical test which will be held on next friday.
Feel rather weird after knowing the results. Weird in the sense that, feel rather satisfy with the results that i am getting, because during the preparation for the test, i was suffering from lots of mood swing plus the environment that i am in while taking the test, which makes me very hard to concentrate. But feel rather unhappy, because the lecturer say that she was very linear in her marking @ the SAQ section, which really makes me think: Is that really the marks which i deserve to get or..? I also dont know...
Then in the afternoon, i have my elective training.We were ask to do the 200 meters sprin in 50 seconds on avg of 6 intervals. But i only manage to get it in 60+ seconds on avg.*sigh*But after my elective training, i met up with my god brother and went to the gym. After going to the gym, we went to jog around the school instead of on the track. We took around 15 to 20 mintues to finish.
Today was the most relax weekend for me, cause there are no housework to be done, no school meeting to attend, yeah!!! Haha wake up at around 11am, cause sleep at around 4+ last night. Then wake up already, still got breakfast waiting for me nicely on the table, haha which was bought by my dad.. Wow very long never had breakfast being serve nicely le lo.. Actually plan to study for my Bio Practical & MCQ test and my Clinical Practical test but ended up watching TV with my sis and chatting on the phone with my god sister, so decide to study it at night. But who knows what has happen to me, after watching the channel 8 show, i have no mood to study anymore after flipping the Bio lecture notes. So ended up revising my presentation module and my clincal lol... But luckily the Bio test is on week 12, so at least still got a little bit more time.. Hai But really dont know when will my mood swing go away. Maybe too stress up on the catching up of my work lol, but at least now i experience less mood swing la. Yeah give me some time and i will soon recover..=)

A Day That Can Be Release Early

2004-09-09T20:20:00.000+08:00

Today is still a normal day for me like last few weeks, lesson at 8am in the morning but the only difference is that there is no bio practical n no lecture in the evening, which means that we will end lesson early.. yeahhh, so happy.. U can say that I am a little weird or whatever, can just because of this things be so happy, but this is me, jus me, what u expect, want me to remain sad n think of him everyday? NO WAY, NW I really must be strong and determine to face my own life, really cant afford the time to be weak anymore, attachment, presentation and the semester's exam are all on their way here, how can I be weak anymore just because of him.. IS REALLY A NO WAY FOR ME ANYMORE..
Just finish my clinical theory test on tuesday, nearly 'die' in this test, cause the threate was darm stuffy @ the beginning of the test, and still have to face him n also have to compete with the time somemore, at that point of time, my mind was totally blank, trying to get all the things out but cant mainly due to the stuffy enviroment.. but finally ard 20 mins later, the air-con come back, finally manage to get the paper done.. Erm, can say to be quite confident in the paper, but not really sure about the grade after my lab teacher tell us the answer yesterday, just really hope that i can at least get a B if i cant get the A.
Come back to Today, although lesson end early, but i never go home after that. Went to the e plaza to go through some of my modules stuff and at the same time get them printed so as to get me started now.

What am i doing, is THIS WHAT I WANT?

2004-09-06T14:19:00.000+08:00

Tis few days hav been feeling very lost, feel tat i hav been too dependent on my friends n feeling that is e life that i hav been living for e past few weeks is it really wat i wan?? wen can i really catch up wif my work?What am i doing, wat has happen to mi? Only knw hw to bust into tears wen thinking if abt tis things, hw come i am so weak?haven i got over wif him? Own things haven finish or settle, come my mum thing, she has been misunderstand by my aunt last wkend, den i am there to witness the incident. really feel very sad n unhappy to see my mum being scold n misunderstand by pp, wen she didnt even hav e chance to explain n i as her daughter, wat i do, i couldnt even stand up for her to tok back to my aunt, jus only can calm her dwn for the time being till they really call them out to settle...
nw really feel a lost of word abt wat to say n tok, maybe i really need some time to get back to normal n be strong.. hai jus wish mi luck la..

When Can I Be Back To Normal?

2004-09-06T13:37:00.000+08:00

Wow ard two months nv update le..
For the past two months is really like forcing mi to grow up into wat i am nw which i really dont knw is tis wat i wan..
The emotion prob that i hav mention in my last post has finally come to an end in ard mid august, result is i n tat peron nv go into it cos he decide to back out. when he told mi abt it, i was feeling a sign of relieve but at the same time i was also feeling sad. I feel relieve is that finally i dont hav to tink so much anymore n luckily we nv go into it after he tell mi e reason, but i dont knw y do i feel sad, n in e end i jus cry out in front of belfred didi, and at the same time i jus hpe tat there is someone else who can really giv mi a good scolding or jus a slap on my face.. but e person tat can really giv mi a good scolding is nt ard n is busy wif his training. Didi was shock wen he saw it, as he was on the phone with yiyi initially.. He try to calm mi dwn after tat n we hav a good tok til very late, he ask mi a lot of questions which really makes mi tink n ask myself abt it. I thought it would be the end of it but in the end e nxt day i still hav to go back to sch to face him n still hav to tok to him normally like nothing has ever happen.. DO u knw tat is really XIN KU n fustrating? Is really very torturing, which really makes mi hav endless tears for that particular wk.
But after that wk, i finally survive, but is also frm e help of didi n yiyi,they keep cheering mi up, and even try to sense to mi that makes mi think. After tis stupid incident, i thought is the end, but in e end find out that i really hav been missing out on my studies which i really cant catch up during e lectures. when ppl ask mi ques abt the module, al i knw was a little bit, n i only manage to catch up well in two modules n e rest were al in a mess.. Have to really take a lot of time to go thru everything but when start to go thru, again will think of him, think of not hw well he treat mi, is think of: If n0t bcos of him i wont be in tis state. But who can i blame, jus hav to blame on that i do not hav e determination initially lol.. haiiii

Your Brain Usage Profile

2004-09-03T15:32:00.000+08:00

Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 46%

Visual : 53%

Left : 66%

Right : 33%

Jia, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.
Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.
Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.
Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.
You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."
With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.
Software-Based Success-Management!!!

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A New Semester & Latest Update

2004-07-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

haha very long nv update le hor, hehe cos busy ma..
okie for the past one month can say to be a emotional n tiring month, (more to come ah)
during e starting of tis month, i was out in e clinical area, haven start to leran anything abt yr 2 jiu all mi go out, stupid rite, but nv mind la... at least frm e 1st week of e attachment, i manage to learn how to give injection n have plenty of practices on my dressing( wound cleaning) as it is e most important part for our clinical practical la.. as for e second wk, i am being posted to e school of health services where i will be going to e pri n sec sch to do check up for the students there la.. initially i am very happy n excited cos i can see cute cute children in e pri sch, but wen i was there, ha ha guess wat.. i managed to see cute cute didi n mei mei la, but wen they were in a bunch, hai yo they can really be very noisy till u hav headache ah.. my grp mate n i n the staff nurses there were really having a hard time to control e noise level.. we were shouting away n trying to keep them quiet n knw wat, tis is also e 1st time i see my friend, travis, scolding e children lei, ha ha his fierce face can also be very scary de lei..

after e two weeks of attachment, i am back in sch since last wk..
last wk was e 1st wk in ach as a yr 2 student, haha e feeling was: haha i am ppl's senior nw le wow haha' cos i hav a class of mentees under mi, as i am e tudent mentors in my sch of health science.. but yr 2, ppl's senior means i will have to work extra hard in tis yr lo, cos frm wat i knw yr 2 is not a easy yr.. which i can really start to sense it frm e second or third day of sch.. presentation n assignment n test start ringing at my ears, by which wk mus present n wat so ever la..books is also thicker n hrs in sch r also longer as compare to yr 1..

ermmmm wat to do, haha jus face it in a positive way lol, beside all tis stuff, still hav to face e emotion stuff.. has been bugging mi since my attachment in june le, but is two diff. ppl la.. haiyo, tis matters only those who were very close to mi will knw la, xinyi n belfred n wee liang only a little bit lol, cos h in ns ma, where got so much time to tok.. but very happy is tat no matter wat my decision is, they r always there to support mi, no matter where they are, esp. weeliang kor kor, as he i in tekong nw ma, haha becoming wulu wulu man le, but also fit fit guy de wow, haha
but really mus thanks them cos if dont have their accompanies, i tink i wont be here typing le lo.. haha..
FOR WEELIANG KOR KOR, XINYI DA JIE & BELFRED DIDI,
A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO U ALL!!
HOPE THAT OUR BOND WILL BE AS STRONG AS That TIME!!!!!=)

Quiz Result: Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You?

2004-06-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

You are Huang-lao-jun!
An important deity of early Taoism and main god of
the Way of Supreme Peace (dai-bing dao). He was
regarded by the common people as the ruler of
the world who descends to Earth to guide and
assist mankind.

Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You?
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A mEeTiNg ThAt We Do NoT nEeD tO bE sO StReSs

2004-06-14T14:26:00.000+08:00

Last tuesday was e 1st time that i wen to e supermarket wif some of my poly friends to shop instead of doing or discussing our school presentation which is e purpose that we usually meet up for..

Actually tis meeting is to gat stuff for our calss bbq that will be held on the nxt day.. The main idea is frm mi, while e organiser for are, Salwa, Travis, Rini n mi.. We invited all e classmates despite that there are some of them which e class do not really like, but is jus a form of countesy la.. ha ha but who knows, in e end those that cannot make it de are those we dont really like de, but only one of them la, but e whole thing hav to carry on rite*wink*

So On tat day, Salwa, Travis, Rini, Huai ying, guang fo n mi, decide to met up @ woodland mrt n we took a bus to sheng siong as e goods there are more cheaper la, ha ha mus be more budget ma*wink*.. All of us wen in to e supermarket n we were seperated into 2 groups, one of them in charge of e dry stuff, which include travis, guang fo n mi, while e next group in charge of e wet stuff..

so after abt half n hour those that r in charge of e wet stuff wen up to join us.. during e searching of e stuff, u can really see the difference between those who go to e supermarket n those who dont.. ha ha well i think i am e one who falls in between cos some of e stuff i know how much or where it will be located while some of it i dont really know.. but i think some of them fall in e same catergory as mi la.. he he

After we r done wif everything, we sort out e things n seperate equally for everyone to take it hme lol.. But after tis whole outing, i now really know that who shld i learn frm n who shld i call out wen we have tis kind of thingy already...

A dAy WiF lOtS oF fEeLiNgS bUt OvErAlL iS HAPPY

2004-06-09T00:46:00.000+08:00

On monday morning, i wen to met someone which i finally can forgive him after 7 months le.. E date was a "ok de la" one lol, cos after a few conversation, he agian giv mi that kind of weird feeling which i feel rather uncomfortable wif it la, but we jus cary on.. So he n i wen to a temple in bugis n pray pray la, after that we went on seperate ways, but tis meeting really tell mi that is impossible for mi to be close wif him anymore like last time le, i only can treat him as a very very normal friend...

okie nv mind abt e morning, wat i yearn most is e afternoon, ha ha.. I meet xinyi, wee liang n belferd @ amk mrt station to hav our gathering today,.. after meeting, al of us wen to EAST COAST PARK to hav our bowling game which we plan intially... all of us enjoy ourselves a lot n all of our score was ok la, esp. mi lol, cos e first few game, my score is very low, but after much warm up, ha ha i finally catch up to xinyi n weeliang's score..

after e game,we actually wan to watch sunset but saddly no sunset lol, cos maybe at e wrong position lol, so we wen to MAC CAFE to have our so call dinnner n at e same time wait for belfred to come over, cos he hav something to attend to wen we meet.. so al of us hav double chocolate n 4 different falvours of cakes, al of them r ok la, not bad lol, really up to standard de la, ha ha.. our MR BElFRED finally appear n we wen on to e beach..

AT the beach, all of us feel very relax, n esp mi, doing a lot of silly things n fooling ard like nobodys business, *wink* den we took lots of pictures wif 2 camera n 1 digital camera, ha ha got a lot of post de lei, esp mi also la, cos i really feel very emotionally, physically n mentally stress out during e past few months ma, so today is also e time for mi to vent all out lol, ha ha.. k come back to e taking photo, ha ha, mi n xinyi the camera skill is ok only la, but as for wee liang n belfred, theirs is really much better den us lol, esp, wee liang lol, his is e best one lol.. after taking pictures, we al sat dwn n chat for quite a while, we tok abt a lot of things la, was tokinhg very happily but in eend a call frm my hp ring n disturb my mood, which is frm my dad lol, nagging n nagging lol, so in e end, no choice alof us hav to end there n is time for us to leave le lol, which we cant bear to lol,..

BUt overall,today i feel very very happy n relax n i also dont know how to put in words de feeling lol, despite of al e disturbance n some meeting lol... which all of us reallly hope tat we can hav it again in future...

How bad is your temper-according to horoscope

2004-06-05T21:39:00.000+08:00

LIBRA (September 22 - October 22)

Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac? Well, it's true. Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry. You are very conscious of your image, and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality. You also think you are above things like anger. But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood. Your family or those very close to you know u better. You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs, and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.

this is my way to live

2004-06-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

this is my way to live...

What about yours?

made by rav-chan

Happy n Satisfy

2004-05-30T01:08:00.000+08:00

Today actually i dont feel like going out to anywhere n jus stay @ home n do all my stuff despite my dear friend, xinyi did message mi last nite n ask mi to go to my previous workplace to accompany her to have lunch n go back n see those colleague that i hav not seen them for a long period of time..

BUt strange in the end i did get out of my hse n proceed to the respective venue n have lunch wif both my dear brother n sister, wee liang n xinyi.. Really very HAppy to see the both of them as i have miss the both of them so much.. Well we were having happy n wonderful moments even though it was a short gathering.. The feeling is very good which cant be describe in words la..

After lunch, wee liang hav to go back to work, so i decide to pop in together with him n xinyi to see my chief cashier, Iris mommy which i use to call her last time.. Notice that she is still the same, so friendly n so close to us, like our mommy, ha ha... Also notice that Miss Lim has slim down a lot, but still the same as last time love to joke ard wif us together wif Miss koh..

But everything has to come to an end, so we stop all the conversation and xinyi n i jus proceed to get our stuff n after tat we went hme leaving wee liang still have to work.. But really feel very HApPy N SaTiSfY that i did not regret going to this outing or meeting la.. ha ha ha