Yeah, my AL is finally here=)

Yesh,finally my annual leave is here. Has been pending for this annual leave ever since my last AL. Was like 4 months plus ago, really working like mad, and I am totally shed. Hoping to take this opportunity to really have a good rest and to do whatever that I have been planning for. Really enjoyed myself on sunday, we finally manage to have our own sweet and wonderful times together with no interuption and anything. We have our own privacy and time, and a good talk too.I manage to understand him a little bit more and he did tell me the reason behind some of his actions. Though the time was short but is already longer than what we used to spend together. Was surprise by what he initiated before we meet, but didnt regret for going along with it, instead I feel the satisfaction and happiness after everything. Hope that whatever he said to me before on that day and last sunday will come true eventually and just really wish that we could go throught everything together as we go along.

You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what. Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out. And while some may get hurt by your honesty... At least everyone knows where you stand!

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howhonestareyouquiz/">How Honest Are You?

Is a week full of happenings. Monday, mum sick, take family care leave to look after her. Tuesday, Dont know what the hell again, I faint during work again, another episode, and because of this, We have another misunderstanding. Wednesday was the most enjoyable day for me, though still have to go back to my work place to see the doctor, but after all, I still have yiyi to accompany me. Hee,(WINK) After the consultation, is our dim sum time. After which, we went to Bugis junction and have our neoprint taken, and then we went to Billy Bombers to have our dinner. REally enjoy ourselves to the fullest on that day. Thursday, back to work, tired and moody, partly is tired and also due to the misunderstanding that we have. Friday, OMG, down with sore throat, bodyache, tired and feeling feverish, but still tahan till my work ends, haha i strong hor=)

Argh.... I am going to be bored to death, hmmm... All because of my stupid leg and him. Hai, was very troubled by my weight ever since I went to the chinese physician last week for my sprain toe, which has been very painful for quite some time. He say I have flat foot, say I cant put on weight anymore, otherwise all the ankle problem will start surfacing. Hai my weight seems to be like e stocks like tat de lei, last week high, this week low, den nxt week high again or remain. Now try to take just wholemeal bread with jam only lol, then my colleagues told me that actually eatting the same food everyday doesnt mean that u can really reduce ur weight, and the other thing is u cant consume more than 30g of fats per day oki. Hai, why cant my genes be like my dad, how he eat also wont get fat, if fat only a little but only. Hmmmm=( super demoralise. Now also dont really dare to wear fitting clothes and skirts lol, all because of my big fat thigh, wear le, will be very ugly. Hai

Can humans really forget what has happen before? Can we actually forget something that has really hurt us so much? Can forget but will u still think back as the times goes by? Does LOVE helps to clear all the unhappiness? Do we really think 1st before we do? Do we ever really think 1st before we say anything to others? Why Why Why? Can anyone guide me what to do now?

Yeahpi, yeahpi, finally we get to watch the show" Music and Lyrics" together. Has been hoping to watch this movie with him ever since it starts. Was very happy when dear dear message me just now, and date me for a movie today. Hee, this is the 1st date that he initialed after what has happen the whole of last week. Really appreciate the time that we spend together just now, thought is just about 2hours, but is just the whole purpose and most importantly, both of us were happy that really matters.*Wink* We both enjoyed the movie, and I should say this is really a great and meaningful movie. Loves the song' Way Back Into Love' that is compose by Alex Fletcher and Sophie Fisher. Overall rating: 5 stars!!

Lots of things has been happening recently, i nearly lose him, which i know that the whole reason behind is because of my stupid attitude and my stupid character. I nearly lose him because of all this stupid stuff that i did. I really sheng zai fu zhong bu zi fu, but after what has happen, I really must change all my stupid character le, i cant continue this way anymore, I really dont wish to let history repeat again and hurt him anymore. I dont wanna lose him, i wan to be with him always.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies. You think good luck is something you won't attain - you expect bad luck. The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's The True You?

You Don't Hold a Grudge

You're willing to give almost anyone a second chance, even if they've really wronged you. Incredibly forgiving and compassionate, you understand that people sometimes change for the better.

Do You Hold a Grudge?

Should I or Shouldnt I

Have been thinking a lot recently. Feel that at times I really could not communicate with her anymore, seems to be like we cant really stay together, just a difference of a few years and yet... Hai is it true that 1 of us must move out then everything willl be fine? But should I do that? But I cant bear to leave them. Hai.. I am really tired of fighting with her everytime, is really very tiring and painful. Everytime is I am the one who gets the hurt and the blame, but luckily i still have Dad who will always be there to side me, but hai

HURT

Am I very stupid? Why is it that people can learn so fast and yet I am still so blur?
Why do people like to compare? I know I tend to be slow, but it doesnt means that U people have to say this in front of me right? Is it wrong to be slow? Do I really suits theatre life???
Am I a Disgrace to u? Why is it that u cant jus bring me along and introduce me to your friends but instead leaving me to your family until the very moment that I went and look for u. Is it all because of my family or is it because of the scratches on my forehead? I know u people must be thinking that I everytime has a lot of family problem, my family is different from others,my family always quarrel and fight but does it also means that I am at fault? I like my family to become like this is it? I am also feeling very tired and sad but what can I do?
Why everytime anything happen is always my fault? Why is it that is I am the one? I am also a victim too! I am also hurt, I am always hurt by what U have done to me, but why is it that always I am the one who get blame and get scolded? Is it fair to me?
I am very very exhausted.

I am very sad, very confused. Really feel like crying. I m very lonely, really very lonely, when did I become like this? How come everything turns out to be this way, am I being too possessive? Did I balance in the wrong way? Why I dont know how to balance my life well? I am really very sad, lonely and confused. I dont know what to do now, all i know is to cry and cry. My heart really aches, I feel so alone now.='(

Happy 21st Birthday to me

Has not been blogging for quite some time. Today is my 21st birthday, feel happy for what is being given to me by everyone around me.Previous saturday Dad bought a cake for me for my advance 21st celebration with my relatives. Last friday, kor kor and yiyi give me surprises and it really makes my day, feel very relaxed and happy thru out the whole outing=) Today, the actual day, feel very happy and honoured that my dear will try to make a point to celebrate my birthday with me, thought some of the surprises is not fulfilled. Really Feel very happy n grateful that I could have all the blessing and gifts that even some of them is what I have been hoping for.

Recently, I notice that he changed. How and what kind of changes,I dont really know how to describe it, is just different from what he used to be in the past. Did mention to him but hmmmmm, maybe this is human nature ba, seems to be like nothing that either of us can do, or even if can, maybe is not the time yet, or I m not used to his changes, but all I wish that the love that he have for me will never change and it goes the same for me.

Hmmmmm, Really hope that from today onwards, I can change my bad habits of thinking too much or getting upset easily and some of the stuff which could lead to some misunderstanding and unhappiness. Wandering could I do it??!!

Your Inner Child Is Sad

Your Inner Child Is Sad

You're a very sensitive soul. You haven't grown that thick skin that most adults have. Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone. You don't let many people in - unless you've trusted them for a long time.

How Is Your Inner Child?

I was very touched that yiyi & kor kor actually delay our movie date from yesterday to today, We went for breakfast in the morning then followed by our movie date: MI3. After which we went down to THPZ wishing to visit Iris mummy but hmmmmmmmmmmmm, so sad, she was not working, so in the end we just talk to some of our old colleagues & went to have our lunch. Heehee, yiyi treat us to swensens & we have quite some fun there=)
The feeling of going back to THPZ today is very very different, dont know hw to describe the feeling, but just feels that the whole place has change a lot, erm as fo human wise, that is where i really dont know hw to describe, is like very MO Sheng.Maybe is true, as you grow, you tend to change or maybe they are not whom I used to be very closed to, so that is why I am feeling this way ba.
Overall I did really enjoyed myself today with the 2 of you!!

I got a new bracelet from him finally

Last sunday, dear dear finally bought me a bracelet which he has promised me since i lost my favourite one.
Initially we did went to look for one after I lost that, but seems to be like nothing caught my eyes.But as times goes I thought he might have forgotten all about it, so I never really think about it, but surprisingly, Last sunday, after our breakfast, before my last driving lesson, He bring me to all the jewellery shop such as Perlini & Bits & Pieces to look around. Initially I thought it was just purely looking around, but in the end he ask me to choose what I like, but i was still thinking that maybe is just asking only, but surprisingly he really ask the sales girl to took it out and pay for it. At that moment, all his actions really melt my heart, really very happy that he still remember what he has promised me.

Lost of My Fav. Bracelet

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm:'( Super bad mood today, I lost my Fav. bracelet. That is my Fav. bracelet which I ever have. It is from cambodia which bel bought for me. Althought the bracelet is not those very very pretty de, but is one that I would Definitely put it on whenever I go out.Actually is due to the losening of the opening of the bracelet, initially there is no problem, but is all because of yesterday, if I never put it on while doing my project and cause it to tighten till cannot be taken out, then my sis jiu wont take the cliper n force open it and causes it to lossen. And I also dont know what has happen to me today, stupidly still go and put it on even though initially already have that feeling that if i put it on, it will get lost sooner or later due to the lossening of the opening. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, I WANT BACK my bracelet, but my family & bel says that is very hard to get back, the reason is besause I dont really know exactly where did I drop it at, I just feel that is either at the North Canteen or on the way out of our school. But I REALLLY WANT BACK MY BRACELET, I REALLY MISS MY BRACELET. Where are you my dear bracelet, I really miss u!! HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM, I really have the urge to go back to sch to just look for it jus now, but after hearing their comments and thinking it logically, is really very hard to find it back. BUT I REALLY WANT IT BACK.

Yestderday night was a wonderful & happy night for me. Because yesterday Dada come n fetch me after my work. The happiest thing is he bought CHOCZ chocolate for me. Everytime when I pass by the shop, I will be looking at its chocolate and everytime I have been hoping that someone who I love will buy give me, hehe,then finally yesterday Dada bought it le.=) I was so surprise when I saw that, the feeling was unforgettable & words can never describe how I feel last night,besides the chocolate, and also the way he behave last night that really makes me feel very sweet & happy=)

I am really very sad, I dont know is it because I tend to think too much or what, but it seems to me like nobody really understands me, no one can really lent me a ear to listen, all I need is a ear to listen,is that so difficult?? At times I really feel like a failure, i seems to like dont know hw to manage my relationship with my friends, my family, my boyfriend and my studies is only those jus able to make it only. Why all of them dont understands me, why those who are really close to me n knows my characters dont even understands me? Is it that when u need to li yong me tat time then I am your good daughther or sister or.. I am really very very disappointed. At times, I really feel that am I jus a LI YONG PING to all of u.I know that at times is my fault when I raise my voice at u al, but why do u al hav to treat me till like I am your enemy? Do u all really treat me as your sister n daughther or jus your atm or ur happy happy jiu scold de chu qi tong?
I know that at times is really a bit disappointing when u all ask mi out but i cant go, but this is not what i want too, U all should know that I have family curfews, U all should know that how my family will react & what will they do if I everytime go out. But does that means that if I do not go out with u all in every gathering, jiu means that I am someone who has boyfriend le, jiu forgets about friend le? U al everytime only will know hw to say that I confirm is spend time with my boyfriend one la, dont know how to spend time with all u friends, but who really understand how I am feeling during the whole of this holiday? When I need someone to be there, is there anyone there for me? when I really wants to go out with u friends, can i go? are u all free? do i have to rush hme again after meeting u all for jus awhile only? U all will only think that I still have my boyfriend to be with me ma, but who will really knows the whole situation? He needs to go for his attachment when I am having my holidays, then only 1 day off, enough for what? for his own stuff? for his family? for his friends or for me? Then now attachment over le, thought he will have more time but, his project again. OK never mind, thought sat or sun, either days we can have the whole day out or maybe half a day, in the end family need his help. Then how? Is this what u all say that I only know how to accompany him but not u all? I am not trying to "man yuan" or what, but jus feel that is all this fair to me with jus all ur one sided view? I am not pin pointing at who, I am jus venting out all my angers & my unhappiness n my disappointment in all these stuff.
Is a brand new year now, I jus really hope that all of these stuff wont happen to me again.

Very long never blog lo.A lot of happenings, setbacks which we have to face as days goes by. After the misunderstanding with classmate, there goes my failing of my clinical module. Never fail any module in my poly years before. Really feel very disheartening,very sad, even have the feeling of giving up on this course, but when come to think abt the $32,000++, I have no choice but to overcome it.
After this, here comes my dear dada going for his attachment. U all might think that attachment only ma, nothing what, but to mi, is another chanllenge. We will not be able to meet each other that often le, less time to talk on the phone and maybe his thinking will be different le. Hmmm I know I think a lot, and a lot of people also tell mi that if is yours, eventually it will be, if is not, how you force also no use.I understand, but now after 1 month of his attachment le, I really feel that he change a lot, he become very easily tired, dont really feel like talking to me everytime when we are on the phone, then also like very seldom wanna go out with me, feel that he like enjoy himself more when he is with his friend then with me.
Maybe u feel that I am thinking too much, but a lot of things seems to be appearing le. Maybe I really care too much or I am too particular about some of the things le, but, I really dont know what to say le,maybe 1 day i might just break down or what, i dont know, hope that we can go through it and become closer ba.