Finally all my presentations and test has come to an end.. Yeah yeahpi, finally after all the hard work and rushing of this and that, all has come to end lo.. But this is not the end yet, still got 3 more semestral end papers to go and 6 more weeks of attachments before I officially finish my year 2. But sad to say, I might only have 2 weeks of break this semester, all thanks to the VRE, very good, make us cannot go out for attachment, then all have to make up during our semestral break. Very good right, STUPID, IDIOT, WIN LIAO LOL.. hmmmmm... Somemore still maybe want to take away our study days to make up for the stupid attachment also lol, idiot right!! Hai but no matter what, just hope that everything will turn out smoothly during my attachment and my coming exams.

Finally manage to meet up with yiyi last friday, haha so happy that she can get a job now.Although it was a short gathering, but I am very happy that the bond between us is still there.. But no matter what, just really hope that our bond will be as strong as that time and all the best to u ah, yiyi. Take care and Hope to see u soon, there goes to liang kor kor also orh..

What has happen to me recently, why am I so impatient, why am I feeling scare, why am I having fear, why last time I can jus auto shut off without quarreling with them but now I cant? Why am I so tense up abt small little things?Why, Why, Why, Why am I having all these feelings recently? Have been doing a lot of thinking and questioning and tears are rolling down these few days also. What am I fear of? My studies? My parents? My Boyfriend? I dont know. All I know is I am afraid of losing all these that are important to me. I am afraid that I cannot do well in my studies, afraid that my parents will leave me alone or treat me as a stranger after the incidents, I am also afraid that my boyfriend will leave me because of my stupid nonsense or feel that he is the cause of whatever.. I really dont know how come I have all these kind of thinking? But I am jus afraid of losing them and I also cant afford to lose. I dont know what has really happen to me, all I know that is my test, exams and presentations are all coming up, I still need a lot of energy and strength to carry on with these stuff, but I am sort of feeling tired now, how, how what am i going to do?Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........... Really hope that I will find out all the answers soon, I really dont like to have all these kinds of feelings, I dont want to have this kind of stupid character of being impatient anymore and I also dont want to have these kind of stupid feelings anymore.... Please.............

Overall, you scored as follows:



28% are cooler, and
72% are more of a loser than you.

What does this mean?

You're cooler than half the people! Great work!

It has been a long time since I have last updated my blog, the reasons are: No time, No time and No time. Once the New year has started, I have been struggling with my time, trying to balance out everything, wanting to do a lot of things, going out on attachment, doing case studies, having tonnes and tonnes of assisgnment to do, trying to get all the things done but there are still lots to go and ended up everytime only manage to get a few hours of sleep. Time is always not enough for me this year, 24 hrs seems to be very little, have to rush this and that, have to spare some time for the family, boyfriend and friends. Luckily my boyfriend and my family(sometimes) are quite understandable towards me, but as for my friends, hai, I think only got 2 or I also dont know.Trying to put in my best effort in whatever I do, for my studies, family, relationship and friendships, but it seems that I am not managing it very well. I must really admit that I am very very poor in managing my time. I really feel that hai, I also dont know how to say. This year seem to have a lot of things waiting for me to learn, to manage, and to whatever. Recently I have just lost a good buddy. Reason being: Not enough time to accompany her and she dont feel the bond between me and her. Although she did not say anything, but from the journal she written, hai. I really dont know what to say, just feel really disappointed and sad to hear all this things, but actually me, myself also have this kind of feeling that our bond is not there anymore.Heard from many of my senior in sec sch saying that when u are in poly or once you have leave sec sch, those who use to be very close to u, will slowly have distance with u and the topic for u all will become lesser or even never contact.But instead of believing it, I still try to hold on to it, having those very native thinking that our friendship will last forever no matter what happen and thinking that what they say is not true, but "haha", times really proves everything.Since she choose not to reply, I really have nothing to say anymore, as I have done everything that I should have done and say everything that I wanted to say.
I am really feeling a little bit exhausted and tired, but I still have to buck up, cause there are still more to go, more to learn, and more to face. No matter what, I just have to hang on there, to complete whatever that has been arrange for me,as some of the pathway is I, chose it for myself, so I have no one to blame, Just have to go with it or I should say that think abt the positive point and put in all my best effort.

Attachment has started since Last Monday. This time round, al I can say is my VTP(Vocational Training Posting) Lecturer, al S*** & F***!! The one that I met @ SGH is someone who only know hw to pop into the ward & tok Rubbish & nothing else. Hai, thought & hope that the lecturer in KKH would be a better one, but in the end, this one is worst, stupid & bastard!! Tell us to do case study, then shld be we are the one who is choosing, but in the end, idiot, she go choose for us, somemore is a complicated one, still expect us to give her by nxt Wednesday. Hw am I going to pass it to her? Coming Mon & Tue, I am on nite duty, then Wed is my off duty day, where got time to do, wow piang a.. This VTP is realli a S*** & F*** one.. Idiot lecturer... But however realli looking forward to my nite shift tomorrow & Tuesday. A New Experience for me but Hope that it will be a good & enjoyable one.

Stupid stupid stupid!! Why everytime after U al quarrel, U must surely find some fault with me de.. This is something between the two of u, I AM INNOCENT de ok. I keep quiet or just go out with my friends, also cannot huh? Also GOT WRONG Huh? Why everything also must find fault with mi, Why everything also must say till my side here, Why U al quarrel, then I must everytime say that u are on the right side? Can U be more resonable a not? Only know hw to say that people is @ fault, then u urself dont have meh? I go out with friends, is also just to avoid anymore quarrel with u al only ma, also cannot is it? Then when I accompany U go out, then we just shop for a while only, then u jiu say tired, or say wanna rush to other places to buy other stuff or watever shit.. Then when I just go out with my friends, U jiu say a lot of idiot stuff, say I everytime only know hw to acc my friend, nv accompany U or whatever stupid idiot or childish stuff, which shouldnt be said by an adult like U!! PLs I also Wanna Have Some of My Own Time de ok? K la, Tell Mi, What u REALLY want mi to do? Is it wan mi everyday 24 hours, also stick at ur side, then everytime stay at hme, and be a guai guai girl, then in the end become a nerd or a gal who totally lose contact with her friends & totally become a outdated or old fashion gal lol, then u happy lol, ok, satisfy ma like that??!! Everytime only feel that u r right, say ppl dont guan xin u. Ppl guan xin u that time, U dont know meh, u cannot feel it de huh? Why everytime must just because of a simple dining out of dinner, also must quarrel till a lot of stuff then happy de?

Test has Ended But More Test Are Coming!!

The test has finally ended last Thursday, YEAHPI!! My dear Bb is finally back. Went over to the airport to fetch him with his family & after which we went for dinner together.. But frm the few hours of spending with him & hearing him saying what has happen in Cambodia, can realli feel that he suffer a lot both in physically & mentally, poor guy:(!! But at the same time, also felt that my dear Bb's thinking has changed quite a lot, but is in the good way la, as in I should say that he is more mature now, but not say that he last time not mature ok!! Although the 18 days test has ended, but another test has started or I should say in another way that is there are more test ahead waiting for us to go through.. But no matter what, since I have choosen to go into this relationship, I will hang on to it no matter what & I believe that we will be able to make it in whatever test that are ahead of us.

"I expect to pass through this world but once;
any good thing therefore that I can do, or any
kindness that I can show to any fellow
creature, let me do it now; let me not defer or
neglect it, for I shall not pass this way
again."
Ettiene De Grellet


What Motivates You?
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B:

Who wants to go where everyone else has already gone anyway? You look for the hidden paths, ones most don't see and don't care to venture down. You go boldly andstand proud discontent with what's been put in front of you, determined to find a way perfect for you even no one else will take it with you. You live as you want and not for others, but be careful not become selfish. Others may need you and you should be there for them, especially the ones close to you. You tend to be the leader in most situations and people listen and trust you not lead them astray. Your firm in your opinions and beliefs and unwilling to change yourself to suit other people. By the same token, you can be stubborn to a fault, change isn't always a bad thing you know. Everyone changes and grows, you shouldn't try to stay exactly the same or you could be left behind. Then again, you may change frequently. Some people change to fit in, you my little non-conformist, may change to be set apart. It's great to be different, but it's also just as great to have things in common with people, even if those people are in that "crowd"you seem to have a vendetta against. Don't try to be different, just be who you are, whoever that is and you'll be unique all on your own. So make some time for people, let yourself blend into the crowd every once in awhile, you may just learn something about them and yourself you never
knew before.

Finally manage to figure out all the oven apparatus after asking around yesterday.. Started out with the baking of Brownies, as it was the only recipe which I am quite familiar with.. But the result turn out to be quite disappointing, cause my Brownies turn out to be quite hard and too sweet..(Normal one is soft inside) After much tasting,find out that actually the problem lies on the sugar that I use & another reason is that I never blend it long & well enough, Hmmm..Sob sob:( But hope that the next time will be successful ba..

Today is the first time that I try to stir-fry a plate of vegetable without the help of my parents.. Actually Dad was suppose to be the one doing the cooking, but in the evening, he called home & assign mi to cook, cause he has taught me before.. After receiving the call, my mind was thinking huh ask me to cook ah, die ah, nv try before lei, although got learn & see how he cook before, but can i be able to do so? Will it turn out weird or.. But after much questioning & thinking & mum's encouragement, I finally pluck up the courage & started the test.. Mum was the 1st person who taste the food, and she just say ok la, But when the Master taste it, the result is that u have sort of overcook the vege a little bit & a little bit too bland, but 1st time cook nv get burnt & got these result is quite ok la.. After knowing the result, was sort of disappointed with it, but also quite happy la, cause I have never imagine that I can cook a plate of vegetable without the help of anyone.. But really hope that there will be improvement the next time round la, hehe:)

Finally All Are Free To Meet Up!!

Meet up with Si jia, Soon Ghee,Wee kiat, Liting& her little gal on Wednesday afternoon. Finally, all of us are free to meet up, ever since our last gathering, which was a few months ago.. Went to Bugis to shop for present for Huiying's birthday.. After which, we went to Far East to meet Huiying's boyfriend & wanted to give the birthday gal a surprise which we have plan earlier.. Haha when she arrive, she was shock & surprise to see all of us there waiting for her, especially when she saw Liting, cause liting is the one who has the least time to go out often due to her in-laws.. After all the surprises, we went to SUKI SUSHI for our dinner. On our way to the restuarant, ghee ghee, sijia & mi went seperately to buy the bdae cake. While walking towards the destination, the three of us were joking & fooling around on the street, @ that particular moment, the feeling was like during our sec sch days, nothing much to think & worry about, just joke & fool around like nobody's business. At the restuarant, after our dinner, we took a lot of pictures & celebrated for the Bdae gal. At the same time after the dinner, we also manage to catch up with The Singapore Idol final..
But after this gathering, I was quite happy & relieve to see that everything was ok, & the bonding was still there..Hehe:)

Went back to NTUC with Liang kor kor & Yiyi da jie on saturday. Sort of miss the place & also sort of recall what has happen last year during this time. Although a lot of things such as the management has change, but still realli miss some of the people, especially our Iris mummy. Suddenly also have the urge of going back there to work, but I cant, cause I still have to go for my attachment & some other reasons. After the visit, we went for lunch at Pizza Hut. Although is my treat la, but in the end, kor kor & yiyi also got pay some of it..

On Sunday, realli feel like walking out of the house & just leave them.. Have a fight & quarrel with my younger sister. Ya I do admit that is partly also my fault for giving her a slap, but the slap is due to her rudeness.. But hai, just dont wish to say her anymore le la..

Today finally my dad agree to buy an electric oven & cake mixer for mi & finally, Bel & mi still have 9 more days to go, yeah!! Went to BEST & NTUC to get both of the items.. But was quite stress after getting it, cause was rather blur about some of the things in it & the items that is needed on the baking pan. Think realli need some time to figure out & do some asking around before starting, so wish me luck ba.. Hahaha!!

Firstborn...

Strengths: You're organized, logical, and a great
student. Since parents usually give firstborns
a lot of responsibility over the younger ones,
they often grow up to be great leaders. That
might translate into your calling the shots in
a relationship. Or it might make you the
nurturing type.

Weaknesses: You may come off as a little
insensitive; you're a perfectionsit, so you can
sometimes be too critical. On the other hand,
you might be easy to be taken advantage of you
by, say, always being at your S/O's disposal.

Your ideal match: You'll probably get along best
with a youngest child. You and another
firstborn could drive eachother crazy fighting
over control. But a laid back last-born will
gladly leave all the organizing to you. And
they might just give you the push you need to
forget about all of your heavy responsibilities
for awhile and have a little fun!

Sometimes really feel that I am neglecting some of my friends.. Like yesterday, after going out with my Da jie, Si Jia, I really feel very gulity. From our conversation yesterday, she say that we are not really that close as I think we are, which I find that is true. Although she say that she never blame me or whatever, but I just feel that I really never go and make an effort to call them out or meet them or even call them.
I just feel that how come Huai Ying, 1 of our gang, also the same as me, study poly still can try to squeeze time out to meet them, hw come I cant? Am I trying to find reason for myself or should I really go and try to adjust my time appropriately, so that I can really spend equally time with everyone whom I dont wish to lose contact with..
But I think, I really have to learn how to manage my time properly, so that I will not make the same mistake again.. But I Seriously dont wish to lose any of my friend who have help me through my hard times n share my happiness with me..

The Test Has Started!!

Yesterday is really the start of the test for Bb & Me.. He have to go Cambodia for 18 days, which means that we cant be together for all this days. When I was at the airport, seeing him entering the departure gate, the feeling was really undescribable..

After the departing, I went to the Clinic to interview, but whether is it successful, the answer will only be out on this weekend. Basically this job required me to work till 12 midnight, able to work for @ least 1 year, dispensing of medicine, registration & what a clinic nurse should do.. The purpose of getting this job, is to hope that it can help me to increase my knowledge on medicine.

But no matter what is the answer, all I hope that is The 18 days test for Bb & Me, will never make us apart BUT INSTEAD & I Really Hope That it will Make OUR BOND STRONGER.. But whatever it is, Just wish me good luck and I will JIA YOU TOO.. BB I will WAIT FOR U!!

Hmmmmm.... Is a long time since I last update..
Hasnt been updating for the last few weeks is due to my semestral exam & my attachment..
This few weeks was really an unforgettable & sort of cant imagine.. hehe..
During this few weeks, a lot of things has happen..
Firstly, my exams are coming immediately after my KKH attachment, den those modules is so darm hard & boring to study, but luckily got Bel to accompany me during the study & preparation period.. Secondly, immediately after my exam, is my posting.. Before my posting, i just a single gal thinking of going overseas to recupperate from my previous 'injury' & sort of think about or forget the person whom I have been trying to tell myself is impossible between the two of us, but really cannot imagine that on the 1st day of my attachment, it really come true & we are finally together a few days later.. Yeah.. This will be my ONE & ONLY FOREVER!!!!

You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.

Am i being selfish or what? Sometimes i really cant stand her anymore. Tell her not to think so much le, she still keep thinking, ok this one never mind, but sometime still go and vent her anger on me. For example, ask her to go and eat or tell her to go out of the seats or whatever, she will just shoot back u or use a unhappy tone and talk back to u. OK i understand you are unhappy with your boyfriend things, but didnt u have vent enough of your anger le ma, i already try all my best to help you, let you a listening ear, explain to you, accompany you and all i can do and even ask my brother to get involve also, what do U STILL WANT? I am really trying to get hold of my temper le lol, what do you still WANT FROM ME? I know you are very unhappy abt what he have done to you, ok never mind i let u a listening ear, not only mine, my brother's also,help u in all the ways we can, but have u ever think that when u tell us abt those things, u are @ the same time asking us to recall back what we have experience previously, and recalling all the unhappiness that we are trying to forget. OK this is also our business, but u still want us to go online every night, JUST TO HELP U CHECK WHETHER UR BOYFRIEND GOT ONLINE MA, u thought what ah,WE UR SERVANT HUH OR WHAT WE SO FREE AH, NO NEED TO PREPARED FOR EXAM AH, U DONT WANT TO PREPARED UR EXAM IS UR BUSINESS OK, BUT WE WANT LOL.OK u ask me to do jiu enough le ma, why still want to ask MY BROTHER TO DO ALSO, HE IS NOT UR SERVANT ALSO LOL, PLEASE LOL.. People willing to listen to u, willing to give u advice is already very good liao lol, what do U STILL WANT? Doesnt mean that people also willing to do those things for you also lol, please lol... The way u treat us, makes me feel like u are just making use of our sympathy only lol, PLEASE know your limits can, everyone has their own limits in tolerating people and helping people one lol. Once you misuse or exceed it, u will only make People get fed up or worst is dont even want to be bother with u lol..

What i am mentioning above is refering to Yee man lol, i really cant stand her sometimes lol, but sometimes i just feel that she very poor thing. Sometimes i was asking myself, is it right to think this way, am i being too selfish or am i being too much.. I really dont know, but i just really cannot tolerate it...

Maybe I am being stress by my school work and the coming exams lol, that's why my mood swing so easily, maybe la, i also dont know lol, but i will control myself no matter what lol and I will not explode unnecessary in front of them lol.

Wake up very early in the morning today to do my housework before going back to NTUC to meet Wl, Xy & Bel.. Initially we plan to meet at 10 but ended up most of us was late, except Wl was the earliest.. As usual, after we reach there, the 1st person we will look for is our " mummy", the Chief Cashiers, like Iris and Wan Joo. But sad to say that, we only manage to talk to Wan Joo & some of our former colleagues.. Feel a little strange when talking to one of my former colleague, it was like talking to a stranger or whatever.. But after this visit, I have a very weird and sort of stranger feeling as in the enviroment and the people there, hai maybe is because we didnt really talk much to all our former colleagues or whatever lol.... I also dont know..

After the visit, we went to shop around Thomson Plaza for a while, and went to EDO for our lunch.. We were having fun and great time during our lunch, Bel & Xy were playing with the slippers and Wl was behaving like a small boy while playing Bel's hp games. Although the time was a little bit too short, but it was really an unforggetable and enjoyable moments. It was a long time ever since we, four brothers & sisters, have our meal together already.. But really treasure the time we spend together and really hope that there are much more chances in the future.

An Unforgettable & Enjoyable Posting

Yesterday was the last day of my KKH posting.. Was a very enjoyable, unforgettable experience.. During the posting, I manage to accomplish all of my objective. The most unforgettable experience is that, I manage to do the infant bathing.. It was really an undescribable feeling after bathing for the little baby, she was so tiny and cute and when i bath for her, she seems to enjoy it unlike other babies will cry.. Some of my friends seems to have difficulty bathing the babies, but this baby really build up my confidence, so I decide to bath for her again yesterday as she will be discharge in the afternoon also.. But really sort of miss the ward and the baby that i have been looking after for the past few days..

After the attachment, went to meet XY & Bel for dinner at Ngee Ann.. XY bring us to the Ngee Ann Alumni and we have our dinner over there, the food there was quite delicious and quite filling. After the dinner, we went to Ang Mo Kio Macdonald for some dessert and chat for a while, but was really fun during the time, XY & I even have to use force to open the earpiece package that Bel bought for us, really a little "Po Huai Xin Xiang " lol.. Haha but really enjoy the time.