Went back to NTUC with Liang kor kor & Yiyi da jie on saturday. Sort of miss the place & also sort of recall what has happen last year during this time. Although a lot of things such as the management has change, but still realli miss some of the people, especially our Iris mummy. Suddenly also have the urge of going back there to work, but I cant, cause I still have to go for my attachment & some other reasons. After the visit, we went for lunch at Pizza Hut. Although is my treat la, but in the end, kor kor & yiyi also got pay some of it..

On Sunday, realli feel like walking out of the house & just leave them.. Have a fight & quarrel with my younger sister. Ya I do admit that is partly also my fault for giving her a slap, but the slap is due to her rudeness.. But hai, just dont wish to say her anymore le la..

Today finally my dad agree to buy an electric oven & cake mixer for mi & finally, Bel & mi still have 9 more days to go, yeah!! Went to BEST & NTUC to get both of the items.. But was quite stress after getting it, cause was rather blur about some of the things in it & the items that is needed on the baking pan. Think realli need some time to figure out & do some asking around before starting, so wish me luck ba.. Hahaha!!

Firstborn...

Strengths: You're organized, logical, and a great
student. Since parents usually give firstborns
a lot of responsibility over the younger ones,
they often grow up to be great leaders. That
might translate into your calling the shots in
a relationship. Or it might make you the
nurturing type.

Weaknesses: You may come off as a little
insensitive; you're a perfectionsit, so you can
sometimes be too critical. On the other hand,
you might be easy to be taken advantage of you
by, say, always being at your S/O's disposal.

Your ideal match: You'll probably get along best
with a youngest child. You and another
firstborn could drive eachother crazy fighting
over control. But a laid back last-born will
gladly leave all the organizing to you. And
they might just give you the push you need to
forget about all of your heavy responsibilities
for awhile and have a little fun!

Sometimes really feel that I am neglecting some of my friends.. Like yesterday, after going out with my Da jie, Si Jia, I really feel very gulity. From our conversation yesterday, she say that we are not really that close as I think we are, which I find that is true. Although she say that she never blame me or whatever, but I just feel that I really never go and make an effort to call them out or meet them or even call them.
I just feel that how come Huai Ying, 1 of our gang, also the same as me, study poly still can try to squeeze time out to meet them, hw come I cant? Am I trying to find reason for myself or should I really go and try to adjust my time appropriately, so that I can really spend equally time with everyone whom I dont wish to lose contact with..
But I think, I really have to learn how to manage my time properly, so that I will not make the same mistake again.. But I Seriously dont wish to lose any of my friend who have help me through my hard times n share my happiness with me..

The Test Has Started!!

Yesterday is really the start of the test for Bb & Me.. He have to go Cambodia for 18 days, which means that we cant be together for all this days. When I was at the airport, seeing him entering the departure gate, the feeling was really undescribable..

After the departing, I went to the Clinic to interview, but whether is it successful, the answer will only be out on this weekend. Basically this job required me to work till 12 midnight, able to work for @ least 1 year, dispensing of medicine, registration & what a clinic nurse should do.. The purpose of getting this job, is to hope that it can help me to increase my knowledge on medicine.

But no matter what is the answer, all I hope that is The 18 days test for Bb & Me, will never make us apart BUT INSTEAD & I Really Hope That it will Make OUR BOND STRONGER.. But whatever it is, Just wish me good luck and I will JIA YOU TOO.. BB I will WAIT FOR U!!

Hmmmmm.... Is a long time since I last update..
Hasnt been updating for the last few weeks is due to my semestral exam & my attachment..
This few weeks was really an unforgettable & sort of cant imagine.. hehe..
During this few weeks, a lot of things has happen..
Firstly, my exams are coming immediately after my KKH attachment, den those modules is so darm hard & boring to study, but luckily got Bel to accompany me during the study & preparation period.. Secondly, immediately after my exam, is my posting.. Before my posting, i just a single gal thinking of going overseas to recupperate from my previous 'injury' & sort of think about or forget the person whom I have been trying to tell myself is impossible between the two of us, but really cannot imagine that on the 1st day of my attachment, it really come true & we are finally together a few days later.. Yeah.. This will be my ONE & ONLY FOREVER!!!!

You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.

Am i being selfish or what? Sometimes i really cant stand her anymore. Tell her not to think so much le, she still keep thinking, ok this one never mind, but sometime still go and vent her anger on me. For example, ask her to go and eat or tell her to go out of the seats or whatever, she will just shoot back u or use a unhappy tone and talk back to u. OK i understand you are unhappy with your boyfriend things, but didnt u have vent enough of your anger le ma, i already try all my best to help you, let you a listening ear, explain to you, accompany you and all i can do and even ask my brother to get involve also, what do U STILL WANT? I am really trying to get hold of my temper le lol, what do you still WANT FROM ME? I know you are very unhappy abt what he have done to you, ok never mind i let u a listening ear, not only mine, my brother's also,help u in all the ways we can, but have u ever think that when u tell us abt those things, u are @ the same time asking us to recall back what we have experience previously, and recalling all the unhappiness that we are trying to forget. OK this is also our business, but u still want us to go online every night, JUST TO HELP U CHECK WHETHER UR BOYFRIEND GOT ONLINE MA, u thought what ah,WE UR SERVANT HUH OR WHAT WE SO FREE AH, NO NEED TO PREPARED FOR EXAM AH, U DONT WANT TO PREPARED UR EXAM IS UR BUSINESS OK, BUT WE WANT LOL.OK u ask me to do jiu enough le ma, why still want to ask MY BROTHER TO DO ALSO, HE IS NOT UR SERVANT ALSO LOL, PLEASE LOL.. People willing to listen to u, willing to give u advice is already very good liao lol, what do U STILL WANT? Doesnt mean that people also willing to do those things for you also lol, please lol... The way u treat us, makes me feel like u are just making use of our sympathy only lol, PLEASE know your limits can, everyone has their own limits in tolerating people and helping people one lol. Once you misuse or exceed it, u will only make People get fed up or worst is dont even want to be bother with u lol..

What i am mentioning above is refering to Yee man lol, i really cant stand her sometimes lol, but sometimes i just feel that she very poor thing. Sometimes i was asking myself, is it right to think this way, am i being too selfish or am i being too much.. I really dont know, but i just really cannot tolerate it...

Maybe I am being stress by my school work and the coming exams lol, that's why my mood swing so easily, maybe la, i also dont know lol, but i will control myself no matter what lol and I will not explode unnecessary in front of them lol.

Wake up very early in the morning today to do my housework before going back to NTUC to meet Wl, Xy & Bel.. Initially we plan to meet at 10 but ended up most of us was late, except Wl was the earliest.. As usual, after we reach there, the 1st person we will look for is our " mummy", the Chief Cashiers, like Iris and Wan Joo. But sad to say that, we only manage to talk to Wan Joo & some of our former colleagues.. Feel a little strange when talking to one of my former colleague, it was like talking to a stranger or whatever.. But after this visit, I have a very weird and sort of stranger feeling as in the enviroment and the people there, hai maybe is because we didnt really talk much to all our former colleagues or whatever lol.... I also dont know..

After the visit, we went to shop around Thomson Plaza for a while, and went to EDO for our lunch.. We were having fun and great time during our lunch, Bel & Xy were playing with the slippers and Wl was behaving like a small boy while playing Bel's hp games. Although the time was a little bit too short, but it was really an unforggetable and enjoyable moments. It was a long time ever since we, four brothers & sisters, have our meal together already.. But really treasure the time we spend together and really hope that there are much more chances in the future.

An Unforgettable & Enjoyable Posting

Yesterday was the last day of my KKH posting.. Was a very enjoyable, unforgettable experience.. During the posting, I manage to accomplish all of my objective. The most unforgettable experience is that, I manage to do the infant bathing.. It was really an undescribable feeling after bathing for the little baby, she was so tiny and cute and when i bath for her, she seems to enjoy it unlike other babies will cry.. Some of my friends seems to have difficulty bathing the babies, but this baby really build up my confidence, so I decide to bath for her again yesterday as she will be discharge in the afternoon also.. But really sort of miss the ward and the baby that i have been looking after for the past few days..

After the attachment, went to meet XY & Bel for dinner at Ngee Ann.. XY bring us to the Ngee Ann Alumni and we have our dinner over there, the food there was quite delicious and quite filling. After the dinner, we went to Ang Mo Kio Macdonald for some dessert and chat for a while, but was really fun during the time, XY & I even have to use force to open the earpiece package that Bel bought for us, really a little "Po Huai Xin Xiang " lol.. Haha but really enjoy the time.

Monday was a exciting day for me, because i am going to KKH for my Paediatric posting. Yeah can play with babies and at least for the time being i dont have to go back to SGH... When i reach there, it was really a totally different setting as SGH. Especially the food there and the buildings there. We have our orientation of the hospital by the Nurse Clinicial, after that we proceed back to our respective ward.

Intially i was very happy but at the same time i am also very blur.. But after our lecturer and the ward sister has orientated us, i was a little disappointed. The reason is because i cannot bath for the babies and the things that i can do on my own is the measuring of temperature, BP, pulse rate and respiration rate.. Which means that the things that we can do is very little.. Hai..

After the lecturer has left us, i went into my respective cubicle, and i saw there are many babies at my side, haha so happy.. So i walk around and talk to the babies mummy and daddy.. After a while, i was quite lucky to observe the mother bath for the baby. The baby was just 2 months old, and he was so tiny and cute. Althought during the bath, he was crying away but after that no more..

I am also very lucky that after the baby's bath, it was time to feed another baby. So the Enrolled Nurse taught me how to prepare the milk, and after that i just immitate what i saw my mum feed the baby last time. Haha the baby was very cooperative with me, he drank finish the whole bottle of milk and slept soundly after that, which really build up my confidence..

During the past few days in the ward, i really saw a lot of different babies abd children.. I also manage to see the other side of some of my group mate. Especially Travis and Guan Yi, see the way they carry the babies is really like a daddy or mummy.. Haha i am also being name as the mummy too, they say that the way i carry and feed the baby is like more experience then them. I am a little bit experience because last time my mum and grandma was a nanny, and some of my cousins are younger than me, so i do manage to learn a bit from them la.. hehe.. Next week is my last week in KKH, really hope that it is also a enjoyable one, and hope that most of my objective will be accomplish by then.. hehe wish me good luck!!

Just finish my Bio Pract & MCQ test on Thursday. Is finally over. I really having hard time studing for this test. I also dont know why, I can just sit there for 2 hours but only one or two important info gone in, or can study till half way and the whole brain become blank. Hai sometime can really study till cry. Cry is just because afraid that i cant get what i want, and also because i really cannot take it anymore n feel like giving up. But i know i wont do that, no matter what happens. All i know now is just hope that the result will turn out well and maybe i can get a B or at least the worse is a C lol. Haha but very happy that finally i can have a good sleep this few nights.. YEAH!!!!

What Animal Are U?

You are a Catterpillar! Many people are often envious and jealous of a caterpillar. Caterpillars may not be quick, but they are quite wise and often think about things before they do them.!

Just finish my practical test on Friday, manage to get 48 over 60, but is actually is over 70 one, but my assessor haven grade me on the 10 marks for my overall performance, whether how confident and stable and do i need any prompting during my assessment, those kind of things lol. But i roughly know i maybe will get around 6, cause after the whole procedure, i ask the lecturer for feedback on my skills. So overall, i will get 50 something over 70, then add my theory paper, i just manage to get a B, which is just 4 marks away from A lol, but i am also quite satisfy with my result. Cause despite of all the happenings that has happen the day before my practical test.
In the afternoon, went for my elective practical. We have the 2.4 km training, is those 400m interval, where by u have to target how long do u want to finish each round base on ur previous test result. So mine is 21 mins, then i increase it to 18 mins, which means 3 mins per round. In the end of every round, i manage to maintain it at below 3 mins la, but the result is just either 10 0r 20 seconds before 3 mins. Then after the training, meet up with didi, and carry on with our training again. Went to run round the school, which is more then 2.4km, but in the end manage to finish it.
Actually after the whole day events, i was very happy and satisfy with it, but when i reach home, something happen again. There is already quarrel at home the previous nite already. The previous nite, actually is just some small quarrel between my mum and sis. But ended up, become the whole family. It was a big quarrel that nite. Then last nite, mum say something that makes me feel like the family will break up anytime. I DONT WANT!! I REALLY DONT WANT TO SEE MY FAMILY BREAK UP!!! I am really very scare, i keep thinking and crying the last nite. Cause now only Friendship and Kinship is the most important to me, then i really dont want and cant afford to lose either one of them.

Sunday afternoon just get my new handphone, haha i finally upgrade to colour phone le....=) But sad to say, this model that i am holding on to now, 3120, is not my target phone. My target phone is Samsung E 600C, but the price now is quite high, that's why i never get it. Initially i did not plan to get this phone, i am just getting it for my sister, but after getting it, looking at the function and the price, i start to wonder should i get it.. Haha, maybe is really fated la, after wondering and asking around for sometime, my 8250 spoil! Ended up, i have no choice but to get the phone at the price of $68 instead of $18 cause i cant trade in the 8250 and my dad wants the 3315.
Initially in the morning, the tension at home was like "anytime can explore" mood. Cause my mum was rather unhappy with my dad and in the and the arrow also shoot to me. She say that i have change a lot, say i now seldom talk to her, even if talk also a little bit.. Hmmmm i also has been asking myself this question lately, and the answer is that i am busy with my work, busy catching up and stress about my upcoming test and the next thing is that i just want to prevent having any conflict with them lol. But i dont know whether is this the right thngs to do. Maybe after some of the things that has happen previously, has make me into what i am now. I just want to be back the usual me, but maybe i cant be back to the JIahui that i am when i just came out of secondary school lol. But maybe the present me is also ok la, i also not sure. What i wanna say is, pls give me sometime to get back to someone that i want myself to be.

Received my Clinical test result on friday, manage to get only a B+ for it.*sigh* Our lectuer was kind enough to let us have a look on the marks that we got for each sections. Was rather happy when i got to know that i score 22/25 for my MCQ, but when it come to the SAQ, it was rather disappointing as i only score 16. This theory paper only stands 30% out of the whole module, whereas the rest of it will depend heavily on my practical test which will be held on next friday.
Feel rather weird after knowing the results. Weird in the sense that, feel rather satisfy with the results that i am getting, because during the preparation for the test, i was suffering from lots of mood swing plus the environment that i am in while taking the test, which makes me very hard to concentrate. But feel rather unhappy, because the lecturer say that she was very linear in her marking @ the SAQ section, which really makes me think: Is that really the marks which i deserve to get or..? I also dont know...
Then in the afternoon, i have my elective training.We were ask to do the 200 meters sprin in 50 seconds on avg of 6 intervals. But i only manage to get it in 60+ seconds on avg.*sigh*But after my elective training, i met up with my god brother and went to the gym. After going to the gym, we went to jog around the school instead of on the track. We took around 15 to 20 mintues to finish.
Today was the most relax weekend for me, cause there are no housework to be done, no school meeting to attend, yeah!!! Haha wake up at around 11am, cause sleep at around 4+ last night. Then wake up already, still got breakfast waiting for me nicely on the table, haha which was bought by my dad.. Wow very long never had breakfast being serve nicely le lo.. Actually plan to study for my Bio Practical & MCQ test and my Clinical Practical test but ended up watching TV with my sis and chatting on the phone with my god sister, so decide to study it at night. But who knows what has happen to me, after watching the channel 8 show, i have no mood to study anymore after flipping the Bio lecture notes. So ended up revising my presentation module and my clincal lol... But luckily the Bio test is on week 12, so at least still got a little bit more time.. Hai But really dont know when will my mood swing go away. Maybe too stress up on the catching up of my work lol, but at least now i experience less mood swing la. Yeah give me some time and i will soon recover..=)

A Day That Can Be Release Early

Today is still a normal day for me like last few weeks, lesson at 8am in the morning but the only difference is that there is no bio practical n no lecture in the evening, which means that we will end lesson early.. yeahhh, so happy.. U can say that I am a little weird or whatever, can just because of this things be so happy, but this is me, jus me, what u expect, want me to remain sad n think of him everyday? NO WAY, NW I really must be strong and determine to face my own life, really cant afford the time to be weak anymore, attachment, presentation and the semester's exam are all on their way here, how can I be weak anymore just because of him.. IS REALLY A NO WAY FOR ME ANYMORE..
Just finish my clinical theory test on tuesday, nearly 'die' in this test, cause the threate was darm stuffy @ the beginning of the test, and still have to face him n also have to compete with the time somemore, at that point of time, my mind was totally blank, trying to get all the things out but cant mainly due to the stuffy enviroment.. but finally ard 20 mins later, the air-con come back, finally manage to get the paper done.. Erm, can say to be quite confident in the paper, but not really sure about the grade after my lab teacher tell us the answer yesterday, just really hope that i can at least get a B if i cant get the A.
Come back to Today, although lesson end early, but i never go home after that. Went to the e plaza to go through some of my modules stuff and at the same time get them printed so as to get me started now.

What am i doing, is THIS WHAT I WANT?

Tis few days hav been feeling very lost, feel tat i hav been too dependent on my friends n feeling that is e life that i hav been living for e past few weeks is it really wat i wan?? wen can i really catch up wif my work?What am i doing, wat has happen to mi? Only knw hw to bust into tears wen thinking if abt tis things, hw come i am so weak?haven i got over wif him? Own things haven finish or settle, come my mum thing, she has been misunderstand by my aunt last wkend, den i am there to witness the incident. really feel very sad n unhappy to see my mum being scold n misunderstand by pp, wen she didnt even hav e chance to explain n i as her daughter, wat i do, i couldnt even stand up for her to tok back to my aunt, jus only can calm her dwn for the time being till they really call them out to settle...
nw really feel a lost of word abt wat to say n tok, maybe i really need some time to get back to normal n be strong.. hai jus wish mi luck la..

When Can I Be Back To Normal?

Wow ard two months nv update le..
For the past two months is really like forcing mi to grow up into wat i am nw which i really dont knw is tis wat i wan..
The emotion prob that i hav mention in my last post has finally come to an end in ard mid august, result is i n tat peron nv go into it cos he decide to back out. when he told mi abt it, i was feeling a sign of relieve but at the same time i was also feeling sad. I feel relieve is that finally i dont hav to tink so much anymore n luckily we nv go into it after he tell mi e reason, but i dont knw y do i feel sad, n in e end i jus cry out in front of belfred didi, and at the same time i jus hpe tat there is someone else who can really giv mi a good scolding or jus a slap on my face.. but e person tat can really giv mi a good scolding is nt ard n is busy wif his training. Didi was shock wen he saw it, as he was on the phone with yiyi initially.. He try to calm mi dwn after tat n we hav a good tok til very late, he ask mi a lot of questions which really makes mi tink n ask myself abt it. I thought it would be the end of it but in the end e nxt day i still hav to go back to sch to face him n still hav to tok to him normally like nothing has ever happen.. DO u knw tat is really XIN KU n fustrating? Is really very torturing, which really makes mi hav endless tears for that particular wk.
But after that wk, i finally survive, but is also frm e help of didi n yiyi,they keep cheering mi up, and even try to sense to mi that makes mi think. After tis stupid incident, i thought is the end, but in e end find out that i really hav been missing out on my studies which i really cant catch up during e lectures. when ppl ask mi ques abt the module, al i knw was a little bit, n i only manage to catch up well in two modules n e rest were al in a mess.. Have to really take a lot of time to go thru everything but when start to go thru, again will think of him, think of not hw well he treat mi, is think of: If n0t bcos of him i wont be in tis state. But who can i blame, jus hav to blame on that i do not hav e determination initially lol.. haiiii

Your Brain Usage Profile

Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 46%

Visual : 53%

Left : 66%

Right : 33%

Jia, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.
Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.
Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.
Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.
You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."
With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.
Software-Based Success-Management!!!


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A New Semester & Latest Update

haha very long nv update le hor, hehe cos busy ma..
okie for the past one month can say to be a emotional n tiring month, (more to come ah)
during e starting of tis month, i was out in e clinical area, haven start to leran anything abt yr 2 jiu all mi go out, stupid rite, but nv mind la... at least frm e 1st week of e attachment, i manage to learn how to give injection n have plenty of practices on my dressing( wound cleaning) as it is e most important part for our clinical practical la.. as for e second wk, i am being posted to e school of health services where i will be going to e pri n sec sch to do check up for the students there la.. initially i am very happy n excited cos i can see cute cute children in e pri sch, but wen i was there, ha ha guess wat.. i managed to see cute cute didi n mei mei la, but wen they were in a bunch, hai yo they can really be very noisy till u hav headache ah.. my grp mate n i n the staff nurses there were really having a hard time to control e noise level.. we were shouting away n trying to keep them quiet n knw wat, tis is also e 1st time i see my friend, travis, scolding e children lei, ha ha his fierce face can also be very scary de lei..

after e two weeks of attachment, i am back in sch since last wk..
last wk was e 1st wk in ach as a yr 2 student, haha e feeling was: haha i am ppl's senior nw le wow haha' cos i hav a class of mentees under mi, as i am e tudent mentors in my sch of health science.. but yr 2, ppl's senior means i will have to work extra hard in tis yr lo, cos frm wat i knw yr 2 is not a easy yr.. which i can really start to sense it frm e second or third day of sch.. presentation n assignment n test start ringing at my ears, by which wk mus present n wat so ever la..books is also thicker n hrs in sch r also longer as compare to yr 1..

ermmmm wat to do, haha jus face it in a positive way lol, beside all tis stuff, still hav to face e emotion stuff.. has been bugging mi since my attachment in june le, but is two diff. ppl la.. haiyo, tis matters only those who were very close to mi will knw la, xinyi n belfred n wee liang only a little bit lol, cos h in ns ma, where got so much time to tok.. but very happy is tat no matter wat my decision is, they r always there to support mi, no matter where they are, esp. weeliang kor kor, as he i in tekong nw ma, haha becoming wulu wulu man le, but also fit fit guy de wow, haha
but really mus thanks them cos if dont have their accompanies, i tink i wont be here typing le lo.. haha..
FOR WEELIANG KOR KOR, XINYI DA JIE & BELFRED DIDI,
A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO U ALL!!
HOPE THAT OUR BOND WILL BE AS STRONG AS That TIME!!!!!=)