Just finish my Bio Pract & MCQ test on Thursday. Is finally over. I really having hard time studing for this test. I also dont know why, I can just sit there for 2 hours but only one or two important info gone in, or can study till half way and the whole brain become blank. Hai sometime can really study till cry. Cry is just because afraid that i cant get what i want, and also because i really cannot take it anymore n feel like giving up. But i know i wont do that, no matter what happens. All i know now is just hope that the result will turn out well and maybe i can get a B or at least the worse is a C lol. Haha but very happy that finally i can have a good sleep this few nights.. YEAH!!!!

What Animal Are U?

You are a Catterpillar! Many people are often envious and jealous of a caterpillar. Caterpillars may not be quick, but they are quite wise and often think about things before they do them.!

Just finish my practical test on Friday, manage to get 48 over 60, but is actually is over 70 one, but my assessor haven grade me on the 10 marks for my overall performance, whether how confident and stable and do i need any prompting during my assessment, those kind of things lol. But i roughly know i maybe will get around 6, cause after the whole procedure, i ask the lecturer for feedback on my skills. So overall, i will get 50 something over 70, then add my theory paper, i just manage to get a B, which is just 4 marks away from A lol, but i am also quite satisfy with my result. Cause despite of all the happenings that has happen the day before my practical test.
In the afternoon, went for my elective practical. We have the 2.4 km training, is those 400m interval, where by u have to target how long do u want to finish each round base on ur previous test result. So mine is 21 mins, then i increase it to 18 mins, which means 3 mins per round. In the end of every round, i manage to maintain it at below 3 mins la, but the result is just either 10 0r 20 seconds before 3 mins. Then after the training, meet up with didi, and carry on with our training again. Went to run round the school, which is more then 2.4km, but in the end manage to finish it.
Actually after the whole day events, i was very happy and satisfy with it, but when i reach home, something happen again. There is already quarrel at home the previous nite already. The previous nite, actually is just some small quarrel between my mum and sis. But ended up, become the whole family. It was a big quarrel that nite. Then last nite, mum say something that makes me feel like the family will break up anytime. I DONT WANT!! I REALLY DONT WANT TO SEE MY FAMILY BREAK UP!!! I am really very scare, i keep thinking and crying the last nite. Cause now only Friendship and Kinship is the most important to me, then i really dont want and cant afford to lose either one of them.

Sunday afternoon just get my new handphone, haha i finally upgrade to colour phone le....=) But sad to say, this model that i am holding on to now, 3120, is not my target phone. My target phone is Samsung E 600C, but the price now is quite high, that's why i never get it. Initially i did not plan to get this phone, i am just getting it for my sister, but after getting it, looking at the function and the price, i start to wonder should i get it.. Haha, maybe is really fated la, after wondering and asking around for sometime, my 8250 spoil! Ended up, i have no choice but to get the phone at the price of $68 instead of $18 cause i cant trade in the 8250 and my dad wants the 3315.
Initially in the morning, the tension at home was like "anytime can explore" mood. Cause my mum was rather unhappy with my dad and in the and the arrow also shoot to me. She say that i have change a lot, say i now seldom talk to her, even if talk also a little bit.. Hmmmm i also has been asking myself this question lately, and the answer is that i am busy with my work, busy catching up and stress about my upcoming test and the next thing is that i just want to prevent having any conflict with them lol. But i dont know whether is this the right thngs to do. Maybe after some of the things that has happen previously, has make me into what i am now. I just want to be back the usual me, but maybe i cant be back to the JIahui that i am when i just came out of secondary school lol. But maybe the present me is also ok la, i also not sure. What i wanna say is, pls give me sometime to get back to someone that i want myself to be.

Received my Clinical test result on friday, manage to get only a B+ for it.*sigh* Our lectuer was kind enough to let us have a look on the marks that we got for each sections. Was rather happy when i got to know that i score 22/25 for my MCQ, but when it come to the SAQ, it was rather disappointing as i only score 16. This theory paper only stands 30% out of the whole module, whereas the rest of it will depend heavily on my practical test which will be held on next friday.
Feel rather weird after knowing the results. Weird in the sense that, feel rather satisfy with the results that i am getting, because during the preparation for the test, i was suffering from lots of mood swing plus the environment that i am in while taking the test, which makes me very hard to concentrate. But feel rather unhappy, because the lecturer say that she was very linear in her marking @ the SAQ section, which really makes me think: Is that really the marks which i deserve to get or..? I also dont know...
Then in the afternoon, i have my elective training.We were ask to do the 200 meters sprin in 50 seconds on avg of 6 intervals. But i only manage to get it in 60+ seconds on avg.*sigh*But after my elective training, i met up with my god brother and went to the gym. After going to the gym, we went to jog around the school instead of on the track. We took around 15 to 20 mintues to finish.
Today was the most relax weekend for me, cause there are no housework to be done, no school meeting to attend, yeah!!! Haha wake up at around 11am, cause sleep at around 4+ last night. Then wake up already, still got breakfast waiting for me nicely on the table, haha which was bought by my dad.. Wow very long never had breakfast being serve nicely le lo.. Actually plan to study for my Bio Practical & MCQ test and my Clinical Practical test but ended up watching TV with my sis and chatting on the phone with my god sister, so decide to study it at night. But who knows what has happen to me, after watching the channel 8 show, i have no mood to study anymore after flipping the Bio lecture notes. So ended up revising my presentation module and my clincal lol... But luckily the Bio test is on week 12, so at least still got a little bit more time.. Hai But really dont know when will my mood swing go away. Maybe too stress up on the catching up of my work lol, but at least now i experience less mood swing la. Yeah give me some time and i will soon recover..=)

A Day That Can Be Release Early

Today is still a normal day for me like last few weeks, lesson at 8am in the morning but the only difference is that there is no bio practical n no lecture in the evening, which means that we will end lesson early.. yeahhh, so happy.. U can say that I am a little weird or whatever, can just because of this things be so happy, but this is me, jus me, what u expect, want me to remain sad n think of him everyday? NO WAY, NW I really must be strong and determine to face my own life, really cant afford the time to be weak anymore, attachment, presentation and the semester's exam are all on their way here, how can I be weak anymore just because of him.. IS REALLY A NO WAY FOR ME ANYMORE..
Just finish my clinical theory test on tuesday, nearly 'die' in this test, cause the threate was darm stuffy @ the beginning of the test, and still have to face him n also have to compete with the time somemore, at that point of time, my mind was totally blank, trying to get all the things out but cant mainly due to the stuffy enviroment.. but finally ard 20 mins later, the air-con come back, finally manage to get the paper done.. Erm, can say to be quite confident in the paper, but not really sure about the grade after my lab teacher tell us the answer yesterday, just really hope that i can at least get a B if i cant get the A.
Come back to Today, although lesson end early, but i never go home after that. Went to the e plaza to go through some of my modules stuff and at the same time get them printed so as to get me started now.

What am i doing, is THIS WHAT I WANT?

Tis few days hav been feeling very lost, feel tat i hav been too dependent on my friends n feeling that is e life that i hav been living for e past few weeks is it really wat i wan?? wen can i really catch up wif my work?What am i doing, wat has happen to mi? Only knw hw to bust into tears wen thinking if abt tis things, hw come i am so weak?haven i got over wif him? Own things haven finish or settle, come my mum thing, she has been misunderstand by my aunt last wkend, den i am there to witness the incident. really feel very sad n unhappy to see my mum being scold n misunderstand by pp, wen she didnt even hav e chance to explain n i as her daughter, wat i do, i couldnt even stand up for her to tok back to my aunt, jus only can calm her dwn for the time being till they really call them out to settle...
nw really feel a lost of word abt wat to say n tok, maybe i really need some time to get back to normal n be strong.. hai jus wish mi luck la..

When Can I Be Back To Normal?

Wow ard two months nv update le..
For the past two months is really like forcing mi to grow up into wat i am nw which i really dont knw is tis wat i wan..
The emotion prob that i hav mention in my last post has finally come to an end in ard mid august, result is i n tat peron nv go into it cos he decide to back out. when he told mi abt it, i was feeling a sign of relieve but at the same time i was also feeling sad. I feel relieve is that finally i dont hav to tink so much anymore n luckily we nv go into it after he tell mi e reason, but i dont knw y do i feel sad, n in e end i jus cry out in front of belfred didi, and at the same time i jus hpe tat there is someone else who can really giv mi a good scolding or jus a slap on my face.. but e person tat can really giv mi a good scolding is nt ard n is busy wif his training. Didi was shock wen he saw it, as he was on the phone with yiyi initially.. He try to calm mi dwn after tat n we hav a good tok til very late, he ask mi a lot of questions which really makes mi tink n ask myself abt it. I thought it would be the end of it but in the end e nxt day i still hav to go back to sch to face him n still hav to tok to him normally like nothing has ever happen.. DO u knw tat is really XIN KU n fustrating? Is really very torturing, which really makes mi hav endless tears for that particular wk.
But after that wk, i finally survive, but is also frm e help of didi n yiyi,they keep cheering mi up, and even try to sense to mi that makes mi think. After tis stupid incident, i thought is the end, but in e end find out that i really hav been missing out on my studies which i really cant catch up during e lectures. when ppl ask mi ques abt the module, al i knw was a little bit, n i only manage to catch up well in two modules n e rest were al in a mess.. Have to really take a lot of time to go thru everything but when start to go thru, again will think of him, think of not hw well he treat mi, is think of: If n0t bcos of him i wont be in tis state. But who can i blame, jus hav to blame on that i do not hav e determination initially lol.. haiiii

Your Brain Usage Profile

Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 46%

Visual : 53%

Left : 66%

Right : 33%

Jia, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.
Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.
Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.
Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.
You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."
With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.
Software-Based Success-Management!!!


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