What has happen to me recently, why am I so impatient, why am I feeling scare, why am I having fear, why last time I can jus auto shut off without quarreling with them but now I cant? Why am I so tense up abt small little things?Why, Why, Why, Why am I having all these feelings recently? Have been doing a lot of thinking and questioning and tears are rolling down these few days also. What am I fear of? My studies? My parents? My Boyfriend? I dont know. All I know is I am afraid of losing all these that are important to me. I am afraid that I cannot do well in my studies, afraid that my parents will leave me alone or treat me as a stranger after the incidents, I am also afraid that my boyfriend will leave me because of my stupid nonsense or feel that he is the cause of whatever.. I really dont know how come I have all these kind of thinking? But I am jus afraid of losing them and I also cant afford to lose. I dont know what has really happen to me, all I know that is my test, exams and presentations are all coming up, I still need a lot of energy and strength to carry on with these stuff, but I am sort of feeling tired now, how, how what am i going to do?Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........... Really hope that I will find out all the answers soon, I really dont like to have all these kinds of feelings, I dont want to have this kind of stupid character of being impatient anymore and I also dont want to have these kind of stupid feelings anymore.... Please.............