Yestderday night was a wonderful & happy night for me. Because yesterday Dada come n fetch me after my work. The happiest thing is he bought CHOCZ chocolate for me. Everytime when I pass by the shop, I will be looking at its chocolate and everytime I have been hoping that someone who I love will buy give me, hehe,then finally yesterday Dada bought it le.=) I was so surprise when I saw that, the feeling was unforgettable & words can never describe how I feel last night,besides the chocolate, and also the way he behave last night that really makes me feel very sweet & happy=)

I am really very sad, I dont know is it because I tend to think too much or what, but it seems to me like nobody really understands me, no one can really lent me a ear to listen, all I need is a ear to listen,is that so difficult?? At times I really feel like a failure, i seems to like dont know hw to manage my relationship with my friends, my family, my boyfriend and my studies is only those jus able to make it only. Why all of them dont understands me, why those who are really close to me n knows my characters dont even understands me? Is it that when u need to li yong me tat time then I am your good daughther or sister or.. I am really very very disappointed. At times, I really feel that am I jus a LI YONG PING to all of u.I know that at times is my fault when I raise my voice at u al, but why do u al hav to treat me till like I am your enemy? Do u all really treat me as your sister n daughther or jus your atm or ur happy happy jiu scold de chu qi tong?
I know that at times is really a bit disappointing when u all ask mi out but i cant go, but this is not what i want too, U all should know that I have family curfews, U all should know that how my family will react & what will they do if I everytime go out. But does that means that if I do not go out with u all in every gathering, jiu means that I am someone who has boyfriend le, jiu forgets about friend le? U al everytime only will know hw to say that I confirm is spend time with my boyfriend one la, dont know how to spend time with all u friends, but who really understand how I am feeling during the whole of this holiday? When I need someone to be there, is there anyone there for me? when I really wants to go out with u friends, can i go? are u all free? do i have to rush hme again after meeting u all for jus awhile only? U all will only think that I still have my boyfriend to be with me ma, but who will really knows the whole situation? He needs to go for his attachment when I am having my holidays, then only 1 day off, enough for what? for his own stuff? for his family? for his friends or for me? Then now attachment over le, thought he will have more time but, his project again. OK never mind, thought sat or sun, either days we can have the whole day out or maybe half a day, in the end family need his help. Then how? Is this what u all say that I only know how to accompany him but not u all? I am not trying to "man yuan" or what, but jus feel that is all this fair to me with jus all ur one sided view? I am not pin pointing at who, I am jus venting out all my angers & my unhappiness n my disappointment in all these stuff.
Is a brand new year now, I jus really hope that all of these stuff wont happen to me again.