One after the other, now is my family problem again. Mum got pissed with me again. Come on, I am also pissed lol.. She anyhow promised aunty that I will be joiniong them for dinner, and luckily I have no event or outing going on. Just ask her this question and she just flare up 1st, and of course I will agure back. In the end, Dad got pissed off too, and dad more or less side me, and in the end, she wasnt happy at all,and everything just goes on and on. Till today she still gives me black face and attitude. Comes to think about it, I know is also my fault that I shouldnt have answer back and say anymore stuff, but I has already apologise, what do you still expect me to do?? Why you treat me is so different?? Am I your daughter too?? The way you treat me, just sadden me..

But I must said that at least today I am lucky that I have Bby to accompany me,thought is just a short while, but is just the heart that matters. Despite of his tiredness after his praying in the morning, but he still makes the effort to come and meet me, which really makes my heart feels better and more "Xin Wei". Thank You Bby.

I really really wish that all the rubbish that has happen recently will go away as soon as possible, hopes that everything will be smoother from tomorrow onwards. May god bless me!!

Very long never blog, reason being, busy plus at times just dont know how to put them into words. My luck wasnt very good ever since last week till today. Everything was not going so smoothly and lots of hiups on and off. Suppose to enjoy myself last weekend, but end up being ruin by my parents. Following day, slept for just an hour to 2 only, has to wake up at 3 plus in the morning, thinking that could finsh praying early, end up we could only pray in the daylight, because of uncle's car spoil, and we waited for 3 to 4 hours.. Hai...
A brand new week, a good start, but rubbish, has to OT for 2 hrs plus. Telling myself that never mind, monday only, is ok, tuesday will be better, ha, who knows, tuesday super duper bad luck, being assign to this particular surgeon theatre whereby everytime I will surely get scolding from him either by dropping stuff or even the hose spoil, also my problem or whatever, no matter how hard I try to do my very best, and better still, if he didnt scold me, then I will get hit by some heavy stuff. Some more my senior in charge also has conflict with him, whereby I heard that he has already condem her.. True enough that night, I get all the rubbish again, drop his stuff, get scolded by him, he throw the instruments on my table, my senior answered him in a very bad attitude and in the end he wants to talk to the sister in charge and request to change staff. I was being scolded by him till in the end I broke down. Therefore he request to change because 1 give bad attitude, the other become emotional, because he saw I cried. Ha, ever since this incident happen, for the rest of these few days my confidence totally drop super lot. I become very scare to go to work, when I scrub up, very afraid of dropping stuff, when circulating, I tend to feel breathless even is just a very minor stuff, my performance totally dropped.. Every little thing that is not going well can also make my tears flow. Feel really super duper useless. Really wish to go for a long break, and just dont feel like going to work tommorow morning. When will all these rubbish goes away???...