Is since a long time that I last blog, reason being: busy and tired and too much thought till I dont really know where to start from. Ha!!
Has been busy with all the welfare thingy ever since my AL, trying to be my best in whatever I do, trying to be careful with all those women that U cant really afford to step on thier tails, otherwise you will not have any good days for the rest of your time in there. Have to learn how to be neutral, and not coating anyone's name when you are in the conversation, learn how to be extra hardworking in front of these women, learn how to make a distance with someone whom you actually can click with, but just because these women just like to backstab her, (not sure what has happen in the past but just dont understand that why we are in the same discipline but yet....)or just not happy to see us in good terms. Arhhhhhh, why is working society so S***,hmmmm, I really miss my poly days, and the days when we are just waiting for our O levels and working part time in NTUC, I miss those days!!Doing the things that I should do, in the end also got senior say I lazy, trying to avoid cases!!Come on, we are all on night shift together, and my respond is just a little bit slower in taking the initiative to scub only, and yet you just put this label on me, hai, really yuan wang orh!!! Another few more weeks, the new gals are coming in, and the stress is getting double, all the seniors just expect you to know all your work, and if you were to say the wrong thing or do the wrong stuff, you will get it!!Arhhhhh, super duper demoralise after what has happen this few weeks. Feeling like shit shit shit!!
Trying my utter most best to hold my temper, and to be more understanding and also putting aside all the stupid stuff that I face in work when I am on the phone with him, but yet I get rubbish. Hai, I am really very exhausted, I really need a break, at least a body massage for me, which I am still searching around for it. Next week is again another Will Die week, reason being: working morning but with Long hours everyday, and also in the stupid trauma theatre, wearing all the lead apron which is so damn heavy, Xray the whole day, my eggs is going to be fried or gone. I think by the time I am 30 years or more, I will be a old lady with all the spine and joints problems.Hai....