Very long never blog lo.A lot of happenings, setbacks which we have to face as days goes by. After the misunderstanding with classmate, there goes my failing of my clinical module. Never fail any module in my poly years before. Really feel very disheartening,very sad, even have the feeling of giving up on this course, but when come to think abt the $32,000++, I have no choice but to overcome it.
After this, here comes my dear dada going for his attachment. U all might think that attachment only ma, nothing what, but to mi, is another chanllenge. We will not be able to meet each other that often le, less time to talk on the phone and maybe his thinking will be different le. Hmmm I know I think a lot, and a lot of people also tell mi that if is yours, eventually it will be, if is not, how you force also no use.I understand, but now after 1 month of his attachment le, I really feel that he change a lot, he become very easily tired, dont really feel like talking to me everytime when we are on the phone, then also like very seldom wanna go out with me, feel that he like enjoy himself more when he is with his friend then with me.
Maybe u feel that I am thinking too much, but a lot of things seems to be appearing le. Maybe I really care too much or I am too particular about some of the things le, but, I really dont know what to say le,maybe 1 day i might just break down or what, i dont know, hope that we can go through it and become closer ba.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are confident and ready to tackle life. You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance. You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines. You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

***Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage***


You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!


What's Your Ideal Relationship?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyouridealrelationshipquiz/

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Is really a tiring and hurting week. Ever since the 2nd or 3rd day of school, yee man has been giving me faces and attitude to see, as if I have done anything that has hurt her family or whatever. Finally things has manage to be sort out this week, all she told me was that she misunderstand that I everything also want to snatch from her, is because our our project presentation.Then the next thing is she say that I have always go and accompany my boyfriend when we are having breaks in between or after school, then somemore this is not she tell me personally, everything also ask our gang of friends to talk to me, I am the one sitting there and they keep on shooting at me, and all I do was just keep my mouth shut. I agree that last semester I have been accompanying for boyfriend when I am having any breaks or whatever but, from the starting of this semester, I didnt do that anymore, I just meet him after school or sometimes also dont have, dont tell me after school I cant do anything I like? Ok I did explain to them about from this semester onwards I didnt do that anymore, but Guess what, they say that "it doesnt mean that just this few weeks you never do that means we will feel that your heart is with us or what, it takes time, and it is like frm past sem pile up to this sem than this will make ppl FAN GAN de, thats why sometimes what we talk, you cannot be involve cause u r not with us together ma." So what can I say? Since you all feel this way then what you all expect me to do? The most hurting part is that why cant U(yee man) just tell me about the misunderstanding yourself? Why must you ask the whole gang of them to tell me? What do u treat me as? Ur friend ma? Or? It is really a tight slap that she has given me. I have try to forgive her by toking to her, but in the end, what i get back was, I talk to her like as though I am talking to the wall or I am just transparent to ppl. Message her and ask her, then she say that this is her character, then me lei? I am the one being hurt by u, then still try myself to forgive u, then u just this misunderstand,then u say u need time, then have u think about my feelings?

You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

You are kind, popular, and generous. You tend to be successful at anything you try. A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd. You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you save for a rainy day.

You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you make opportunities to interact with many people through club activities or a hobby, then select someone you like.

Who's the True You?

Yeahpi yeahpi, hahahaha finally all my attachment has ended, I am free from everything now, my year 2 has finally put to an end, yeah yeah..For the past two weeks,Went to the Haemato ward. A ward which deals with all the blood disorder and I did manage to learn something there. But this is also the 1st ward and the 1st time that I Black out on the 1st day of my attachment. Wasnt too sure what has actually happen to me, went to see a doctor, nothing was being diagnose instead she refered me to the neuro specialist but I just cant be bother to go. The reason for not going is because I just dont want my parents and my dada to worry so much, I just feel that the black out is just simply due to not enough sleep or my anaemia, just dont want to make a big fuss out of it.Has been very stress out during the past two weeks, reason being that just afraid that I will black out again in the ward and has to replace again on sat or even during my holidays, but thank god, nothing happen after that, and everything was fine and nice. Haha now is really the time to enjoy my this two weeks of holidays and esp on the last weekend of my holidays, hahaha, muacks!!!! Holdiday, here I come!!

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Finally manage to get some rest this week, yeahpi, hahaha.. But hai, althought I have been pending for this holiday long ago, but I am still a little bit sad. Sad about what, sad about my dear bao bei dada holiday is over!,which means that he will be busy with his studies again and also he will be having lesser time for me. At least this week, I am still able to meet him for awhile, but when next week comes, we might not even meet the whole week. Reason being, My attachment start again, and this will also last for two weeks and somemore I will be having shift duty and he is also having his night class, so!! Maybe now is really the time that I must really stand up and be more independant then usual, maybe i use to be very dependant on him or...I also dont know.Sometimes I feel that I am very childish, know that his semester start already but still keep on wanting him to accompany me or whatever,am I being very selfish?I think so!! Hai, but nevertheless, attachment is starting next week, so I just have to face all this, as I know that it will come sooner or later, but all I can do now is to have a good rest and try not to disturb him so much and do well for my two weeks attachment. And really hope that althought we do not have much time for each other, but hope that our bond will not become weaker, instead it will grow stronger.

Your Birthdate: October 23

With a birthday on the 23rd of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine. You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility. Very sociable, you make friends easily and you are an excellent traveling companion.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

For the following days of my 2nd week of attachment, I manage to see patients with all the gynae or obs problem. Some of them were admitted for surgery of the reproductive system such as removing the whole repro system,abortion,cessarian and labour and also manage to observe how abortion is done as in the initial stage and the weighing of the little abortus which has been ejected from the woman's womb.
Have lots of feeling and thinking during this posting, especially when it comes to how important is it to have emotional support from the husband for patient's undergoing child birth and for those who are going for abortion. The support and feeling for these two procedure are totally different.But overall I do really enjoy myself and i do learn and see quite a lot in this posting, and really hope that in future I can be posted to this ward.
But really feel very happy & fortunate that during this attachment, my dear bao bei has been very caring towards me, especially for this whole week because almost everyday he will prepare lunch or dinner for me or even sent it to me during my break time. Really want to thanks him for being so understanding towards me during my these few weeks of attachemnt. All I wanna say is THANK U lao gong, I LOVE U!!

This is the 1st time that I am having such a fun and eye opening attachment.The 1st three days of my attachment was sooooo fun and exciting.. Went to the O& G center on the 1st day, manage to see how the Ultrasound is being done and how they detect any abnormalities and haha also can see how big the baby is in the mummy's womb.
The 2nd day was even more fun, go to the LABOUR WARD.Very happy that I manage to see 1 labour,the three of us also participated in the Labour, as in encouraging the patient to PUSH her baby out and Giving the mummy all the emotional support. After the baby come out, all of us was so happy and relieve, and tears jus come out naturally from our eyes, but we manage to hold back, RMB PROFESSIONALISM, haha.But maybe I should say that I am on the weak side, cause after seeing how the baby is born and hw the placenta came out, I simply jus feel weak, maybe is due to the large amt of blood loss or maybe I have not taken my breakfast yet or whatever. The three of us just simply feel exhausted, haha as though we are the one who is giving birth to the child.
On the 3rd day, we went to the Nusery. Yeahhhhhh can see so many baby, hahaha.. All the babies there were jus less than 1 hour old or the oldest is only 3 to 4 days of life. They were soooooooooo cute and soooooooooo adorable and also very light. U can jus simply carry them with 1 hand.Haha Finally have the chance to bath & feed the baby again, hehe.. This is for the 1st week of my attachment.

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Finally my semestral exams has come to an end. Now only left 5 weeks of attachment to go, then there goes my year 2.. AND dont forget the waiting of my semester results.Really hope that I can do well this semester, but the final verdict will be out in few weeks time. Although exams has ended, but dont know how come I still feel stress and also tend to get agitated easily and even have misunderstanding with my close ones. I am also not sure what has happen to me, maybe I really need some time to recover and tune back to my normal self. I really dont wish that my this stupid attitude will cause any unwanted regrets to me in future..

As for this coming monday, I will be going for Gynae & Obs posting. It is a posting that we can get to learn how the women give birth & hopw to nurse women who have problems with their reproductive system. I have been looking forward to this posting since yr 1 and is finally here now. The interesting part that I am looking forward to is really hope that I can get a chance to see how the woman give birth to a little baby. Really Really hope that I can get to learn as much things as possible in this posting, as I only have 2 weeks of practice in this catergory in this 3 yrs.

Finally all my presentations and test has come to an end.. Yeah yeahpi, finally after all the hard work and rushing of this and that, all has come to end lo.. But this is not the end yet, still got 3 more semestral end papers to go and 6 more weeks of attachments before I officially finish my year 2. But sad to say, I might only have 2 weeks of break this semester, all thanks to the VRE, very good, make us cannot go out for attachment, then all have to make up during our semestral break. Very good right, STUPID, IDIOT, WIN LIAO LOL.. hmmmmm... Somemore still maybe want to take away our study days to make up for the stupid attachment also lol, idiot right!! Hai but no matter what, just hope that everything will turn out smoothly during my attachment and my coming exams.

Finally manage to meet up with yiyi last friday, haha so happy that she can get a job now.Although it was a short gathering, but I am very happy that the bond between us is still there.. But no matter what, just really hope that our bond will be as strong as that time and all the best to u ah, yiyi. Take care and Hope to see u soon, there goes to liang kor kor also orh..

What has happen to me recently, why am I so impatient, why am I feeling scare, why am I having fear, why last time I can jus auto shut off without quarreling with them but now I cant? Why am I so tense up abt small little things?Why, Why, Why, Why am I having all these feelings recently? Have been doing a lot of thinking and questioning and tears are rolling down these few days also. What am I fear of? My studies? My parents? My Boyfriend? I dont know. All I know is I am afraid of losing all these that are important to me. I am afraid that I cannot do well in my studies, afraid that my parents will leave me alone or treat me as a stranger after the incidents, I am also afraid that my boyfriend will leave me because of my stupid nonsense or feel that he is the cause of whatever.. I really dont know how come I have all these kind of thinking? But I am jus afraid of losing them and I also cant afford to lose. I dont know what has really happen to me, all I know that is my test, exams and presentations are all coming up, I still need a lot of energy and strength to carry on with these stuff, but I am sort of feeling tired now, how, how what am i going to do?Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........... Really hope that I will find out all the answers soon, I really dont like to have all these kinds of feelings, I dont want to have this kind of stupid character of being impatient anymore and I also dont want to have these kind of stupid feelings anymore.... Please.............

Overall, you scored as follows:



28% are cooler, and
72% are more of a loser than you.

What does this mean?

You're cooler than half the people! Great work!

It has been a long time since I have last updated my blog, the reasons are: No time, No time and No time. Once the New year has started, I have been struggling with my time, trying to balance out everything, wanting to do a lot of things, going out on attachment, doing case studies, having tonnes and tonnes of assisgnment to do, trying to get all the things done but there are still lots to go and ended up everytime only manage to get a few hours of sleep. Time is always not enough for me this year, 24 hrs seems to be very little, have to rush this and that, have to spare some time for the family, boyfriend and friends. Luckily my boyfriend and my family(sometimes) are quite understandable towards me, but as for my friends, hai, I think only got 2 or I also dont know.Trying to put in my best effort in whatever I do, for my studies, family, relationship and friendships, but it seems that I am not managing it very well. I must really admit that I am very very poor in managing my time. I really feel that hai, I also dont know how to say. This year seem to have a lot of things waiting for me to learn, to manage, and to whatever. Recently I have just lost a good buddy. Reason being: Not enough time to accompany her and she dont feel the bond between me and her. Although she did not say anything, but from the journal she written, hai. I really dont know what to say, just feel really disappointed and sad to hear all this things, but actually me, myself also have this kind of feeling that our bond is not there anymore.Heard from many of my senior in sec sch saying that when u are in poly or once you have leave sec sch, those who use to be very close to u, will slowly have distance with u and the topic for u all will become lesser or even never contact.But instead of believing it, I still try to hold on to it, having those very native thinking that our friendship will last forever no matter what happen and thinking that what they say is not true, but "haha", times really proves everything.Since she choose not to reply, I really have nothing to say anymore, as I have done everything that I should have done and say everything that I wanted to say.
I am really feeling a little bit exhausted and tired, but I still have to buck up, cause there are still more to go, more to learn, and more to face. No matter what, I just have to hang on there, to complete whatever that has been arrange for me,as some of the pathway is I, chose it for myself, so I have no one to blame, Just have to go with it or I should say that think abt the positive point and put in all my best effort.