Should I or Shouldnt I

Have been thinking a lot recently. Feel that at times I really could not communicate with her anymore, seems to be like we cant really stay together, just a difference of a few years and yet... Hai is it true that 1 of us must move out then everything willl be fine? But should I do that? But I cant bear to leave them. Hai.. I am really tired of fighting with her everytime, is really very tiring and painful. Everytime is I am the one who gets the hurt and the blame, but luckily i still have Dad who will always be there to side me, but hai

HURT

Am I very stupid? Why is it that people can learn so fast and yet I am still so blur?
Why do people like to compare? I know I tend to be slow, but it doesnt means that U people have to say this in front of me right? Is it wrong to be slow? Do I really suits theatre life???
Am I a Disgrace to u? Why is it that u cant jus bring me along and introduce me to your friends but instead leaving me to your family until the very moment that I went and look for u. Is it all because of my family or is it because of the scratches on my forehead? I know u people must be thinking that I everytime has a lot of family problem, my family is different from others,my family always quarrel and fight but does it also means that I am at fault? I like my family to become like this is it? I am also feeling very tired and sad but what can I do?
Why everytime anything happen is always my fault? Why is it that is I am the one? I am also a victim too! I am also hurt, I am always hurt by what U have done to me, but why is it that always I am the one who get blame and get scolded? Is it fair to me?
I am very very exhausted.